Shoot myself to love you, If I loved myself I would shoot you...
I'm back home now..Thomas dropped me off here about 2 hours ago. I hate leaving him...I look forward to everyday I get to see him though..I really appreciate him..he's really been my escape lately..I'm glad to find a person in the world that finally gives a shit about people other than themselves..have you looked at the world today? That's a rare quality...I didn't know people like that existed anymore...which brings us to the question..did they really ever exist to begin with??? Oh well...it's "a great big white world"...I really think Thomas is a guy I could be in love with...maybe sooner that expected too...it's only been two weeks tomorrow...but it feels like forever..I've known him for a little while, but not too close..He's so much like me, it's not even funny..all down to the random weird voices...and those who know me know about my random weird voices I do...that I got in trouble for so much in school..I can't believe how much shit we have in common...Like I said, for the first time in my life I am happy..I guess in the past I tried way too hard to be happy, and it doesn't work out that way..But I guess right when I had given up..Life can be good, if you compromise with yourself..material items and earthly pleasures...do they really make us happy? Do they really fill the gap in our hearts? I'll leave that for each individual to answer, because as there are many different individuals, there are many different opinions. To each his own...Humans are the dumbest animals on this planet..we're the only creatures on this planet that get off on doing other people in...we're the only animals that hold grudges, and we wallow in our emotions. It takes some of us a little while to get over things, to bite our toungues..We are truly dumb animals...