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i don't really need pathetic people in my life. i don't need weak people in my life. and i definitely don't need anyone bringing me down.
sidney and i were driving the other day and hit a dog while driving home. R.I.P. poor thing. i know you're not with us anymore. i'm so sorry for hurting you, we both are.
lately i have been having a lot of trouble with cole's death. sometimes i just break out into random breakdowns and i don't know what to do, or how to explain myself. it's like i feel crazy and i shouldn't be as upset, but i am and don't know how to express how i'm feeling. strange dreams. weird coincidences. eery feelings. burrying myself in a dark depression. it's like i have everything i have ever wanted and something about me is stuck in the past. i don't know what to do anymore. i want to be happy, but something is holding me back. i wish he would send me a sign.
sidney and i were driving the other day and hit a dog while driving home. R.I.P. poor thing. i know you're not with us anymore. i'm so sorry for hurting you, we both are.
lately i have been having a lot of trouble with cole's death. sometimes i just break out into random breakdowns and i don't know what to do, or how to explain myself. it's like i feel crazy and i shouldn't be as upset, but i am and don't know how to express how i'm feeling. strange dreams. weird coincidences. eery feelings. burrying myself in a dark depression. it's like i have everything i have ever wanted and something about me is stuck in the past. i don't know what to do anymore. i want to be happy, but something is holding me back. i wish he would send me a sign.