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Warped: For the most part, I had more confidence and self esteem when I weighed 260lbs in Germany and I could fix my hair like it was a wig (jet black, Bettie Page bangs, cute shoulder length cut) and my eye makeup like it was nobody's business.
Now? I'm nearing 170lbs, I have a lot of muscle, I've got more of a figure, I can still do makeup but I have nothing fun and colorful (no pinks, no blues, no nothing to help that spunk I have) and I cannot fix my hair really worth a damn most of the time. I have less confidence and self esteem.
Warped. So warped. Warpedwarpedwarped. I've lost almost 100 pounds in two years. That's almost an entire person. Scary. So scary. So weird.
God. I'm having a hard decision what I want to do with my hair. I'm just so damn bored with it. It's so blah. I want to grow it out, I really do.. but it needs style. I was just going to get a trim today.. just to keep the ends healthy and strong. It's been about a month and a half... nearly 2 months since my last trim. And fuck... I want something more done to it. And I just don't know what. I'm thinking about fringe. I'm thinking about seeing if I can get some layers. Fuckfuckfuckityfuck. This SUCKS. Sucks I say.
I want colorful eye makeup too. And this bright red lipstick from MAC.
*sigh* Where are my beauty muses? Where are any of my muses? I have no muse. In anything. This sucks. I'm dry. I feel so dry. Like a canyon. Or something. Bah.
Now? I'm nearing 170lbs, I have a lot of muscle, I've got more of a figure, I can still do makeup but I have nothing fun and colorful (no pinks, no blues, no nothing to help that spunk I have) and I cannot fix my hair really worth a damn most of the time. I have less confidence and self esteem.
Warped. So warped. Warpedwarpedwarped. I've lost almost 100 pounds in two years. That's almost an entire person. Scary. So scary. So weird.
God. I'm having a hard decision what I want to do with my hair. I'm just so damn bored with it. It's so blah. I want to grow it out, I really do.. but it needs style. I was just going to get a trim today.. just to keep the ends healthy and strong. It's been about a month and a half... nearly 2 months since my last trim. And fuck... I want something more done to it. And I just don't know what. I'm thinking about fringe. I'm thinking about seeing if I can get some layers. Fuckfuckfuckityfuck. This SUCKS. Sucks I say.
I want colorful eye makeup too. And this bright red lipstick from MAC.
*sigh* Where are my beauty muses? Where are any of my muses? I have no muse. In anything. This sucks. I'm dry. I feel so dry. Like a canyon. Or something. Bah.