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first of all, i know that i shouldn't be after revenge cuz of what natalie did. i'm not that kind of a girl. well, i can be, but not with her. anyways, i already told her, but now i'm posting this so i'll remember...just so i'll fucking rememeber...
jason and patty were having an argument of some kind becuz she was sticking up for kyle (who was being a colossal jerk btw) and not giving jason a chance to tell her why he was mad. so she was all, whatever and left the room. so i sat on the couch adjacent to him. we talked a bit about why he was angry with kyle. kyle was treating him like a slave and jason didn't like it. and kyle kept pushing his luck and jason told him to watch it or he'd get decked. everyone got pissy with jason and stayed with kyle in the other room. i got up and turned out the light in the room we were in cuz i didn't know if he wanted to sit in ultra-bright lights. patty came in and said something about getting ready to leave and then left again. i walked over to jason and sat next to him. i nudged him and he nudged back. we snickered a bit and then he was all, i don't really get along with people i don't relate to. of everyone here, i only relate to you. i told him likewise. we got kind of quiet and moved a bit closer together. he looked at me and i scooted closer. i stopped suddenly and then got up and said i had to pee and walked to the bathroom and sat there thinking about what i was about to do. first of all, i was about to make a move on my friend's boyfriend and second of all, i was about to cheat on natalie. wtf was i doing? i walked out of the bathroom and he was waiting for me. i said let's go sit outside. we did and then everyone came out to find us. i'm glad i stopped myself when i did cuz i can't imagine what would've happened had i continued. i'd never cheat on natalie cuz she's my entire life and i don't wanna jeopardize our relationship. i don't wanna ever lose her, but i was so pissed at her that i wanted to do something to hurt her as badly as she hurt me. i'm crazy (i know it), but at least i stopped myself before making a huge ass mistake. and that's a first for me!
jason and patty were having an argument of some kind becuz she was sticking up for kyle (who was being a colossal jerk btw) and not giving jason a chance to tell her why he was mad. so she was all, whatever and left the room. so i sat on the couch adjacent to him. we talked a bit about why he was angry with kyle. kyle was treating him like a slave and jason didn't like it. and kyle kept pushing his luck and jason told him to watch it or he'd get decked. everyone got pissy with jason and stayed with kyle in the other room. i got up and turned out the light in the room we were in cuz i didn't know if he wanted to sit in ultra-bright lights. patty came in and said something about getting ready to leave and then left again. i walked over to jason and sat next to him. i nudged him and he nudged back. we snickered a bit and then he was all, i don't really get along with people i don't relate to. of everyone here, i only relate to you. i told him likewise. we got kind of quiet and moved a bit closer together. he looked at me and i scooted closer. i stopped suddenly and then got up and said i had to pee and walked to the bathroom and sat there thinking about what i was about to do. first of all, i was about to make a move on my friend's boyfriend and second of all, i was about to cheat on natalie. wtf was i doing? i walked out of the bathroom and he was waiting for me. i said let's go sit outside. we did and then everyone came out to find us. i'm glad i stopped myself when i did cuz i can't imagine what would've happened had i continued. i'd never cheat on natalie cuz she's my entire life and i don't wanna jeopardize our relationship. i don't wanna ever lose her, but i was so pissed at her that i wanted to do something to hurt her as badly as she hurt me. i'm crazy (i know it), but at least i stopped myself before making a huge ass mistake. and that's a first for me!