sorry kids
I'm running off of 4 hours of sleep right now....and I can feel that my body is tired, which means a good bit of my mental sanity is gone. Which can most likely account for these rants.
I know I have a doll journal for this exact reason, but I'm too lazy to actually change over to B-L...
So I casually mentioned to mom how much stress I was under ((because she's been going ON about HAWAII and how I NEED TO GET READY ASAP, even though it's a good two months away.)). And I've been under a bit of confused-stress lately in the doll world. I've just been wanting them all lately, in my own greedy fashion. Saia, for the moment, is out of the question on the attainable-meter. ((production problems off in China with the artist and studio. One girl's been waiting 6 months now... and that scares me.))
So that leaves me with
Mika ($575),
Ruri ($200-and something. Character undeveloped.)
Lottie ($260 +Shipping. Character specifics undeveloped. Story Defined.)
and Delilah ($550, thanks to free shipping until oct.1)
((my other SD boy, Arakumi, has temporarily been put on hold, due to the fact that he is being very specific about his resin form))
All of which have been haunting me. Mika and Delilah more than anyone else.
Delilah is a sweetheart. Sickly, and emotionally vulnerable when it comes to Mika. He loves her, even though She's in love with his older brother, Arakumi.
Mika is the random, adorable, innocent-esque girl who is a nephilim. Part Angel ((although she doesn't know it...)) She falls for an upper level demon, Arakumi.
Those are their profiles in short form. SOO much has been left out.
Back on topic though, I was talking to mom about it, and talking about how I was going to pay for half of one of these two. When she heard that she would be paying half, and I would be paying half, she freaked out, of course. She doesn't understand that these resin forms are so much more than dolls for me. So she pulled out the college card. As many of you know from a few entries back, I have been GREATLY worried and guilty about my addictive doll hobby and it's effects on everything. So of course, I go into a crying fit, because I feel so selfish and stupid, and angry at her because she just doesn't understand... And everything turned awkward so I, of course, feld upstairs to the safety of my room and curled up with Kana on my bed.
another point:
I haven't gone shopping out of an unnecessary need for a year. No clothing splurges on Livy. In the past 5 months, I've probably gotten 4, maybe 6 new shirts. One new skirt. And that's all folks. I don't like spending money, because I feel like that money could be going to me doll....and my dolls come before me. They're almost like my children, but Their characters are all over than me.
IN OTHER NEWS...
-I miss JESSIBELLE...But I don't know when to call you! >.< My jessie-is-at-mom's-house-or-dad's-house chart is all screwed up...
-My schedule is completely fixed, so no more stress.
- I'm going to Maui and Oahu In the middle of october. It will be my first plane trip, and trip out of the Mainland of the states.
-------Mom and i are constantly fighting wheter Kana is coming or not. She is, because there is no way in HELL I am leaving her here. I'd be an emotional wreck, literally.
-Stephanie and mom are at each other's throat because mom feels that steph isn't paying her enough attention.
-------which means mom and I are at odds because she's trying to put me in stephanie's place.
-Junior year is okay, so far.
-boys still suck more than anything else.
------except for Toshiya. I still wuv his little crack-whore self. ((And Ruki, but don't tell Jessie because she will tease me.>> -Just Kidding. I'm going to get teased anyway-))
-Marine Biology means setting up a fish tank.
------- I will have a weather Loach named Toshiya.
*features of the weather loach*
-can sense hurricanes and they begin to swim all over the place and freak out.
- can grow up to a foot long.
- CAN JUMP OUT OF THEIR TANK
---Can survive outside their tank overnight with no ill response ((they create a mucus coat over their skin.))
-Love to be pet, and handled inside the tank.
-aren't easy to kill
- are usually highly emotive, and are prone to being inquisitive.
Water Loach = Perfect fish to be named Toshiya.
-.....I think that's about it.