you're the queen of the streets
This is kim's boyfriend's dog named ABE. he's the best because he thinks laying in my lap is the greatest thing ever. He's been staying at our house and it couldn't have come at a better time. He bites my ears and hair and burrows into my armpit. I love him. he's perfect
Tonight I got in a big fight with John and he said "we are on the verge of living happily ever after" (John doesn't normally say things in that way). the "on the verge" part i think is funny since in my experience most things that I've thought were going to last forever turn during that "verge." The other day I saw kevin and he said he wouldn't talk to me while I was with John and I told him not to forget that we were best friends for five years and grew up together. Our would-be seven year anniversary is on valentine's day. I think that it's funny, I wonder if he'll think of it, or I'll think of it again on that day...he asked me to be his girlfriend on that day to steal all of my future valentine's days i think. So that for on all of those days about "love" ahead of me in the future I'll think of him, maybe for a minute. He's always been annoying like that. Since he's probably moving to the other side of the country in the next year I htink I'll mail him the last page of our notebook we kept during the first years of our relationship, it's him telling me what the future is gonna be like in his head for us. Some of it was right, and he was very wrong for some of it too. He told me that I'll always be it for him, and no matter what he says or does or kisses, that I should always believe that. Love is sort of bullshit sometimes. Maybe I'm jaded. John gives me a sort of pure love, it's curing me of all of my bitterness I think.
Also, I called my father the other day and we joked about how convicted felons cannot vote even after they serve their prison term. He's good at making light of things, that always sucked during seriously bad things when I was little, but now I guess it comes in handy. I got rejected from Fordham's doctoral psych program. pffft fuck em'.
I ate 5 twix bars this week. is it may 14th yet? I need to buy my graduation robe.
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