i saw my first something today

[deepestlaughter]

i don't know whether to think last night was great or it was horrible. it was both extremes at the same time.

i feel like the biggest poop head in the universe. yet i'm happy.

today i saw chris busch. that was strange, but he's still gorgeous and still ignores me. i barely got a hello and goodbye, then a drive safely.

i don't know what to think about you. i'm confused. i can't figure myself out. and i can't figure out you.