For A Special Friend

[deepengravings]

you and your everchanging justice
withold me from my cheer
your guidance offers nothing
lifeless words are all i hear
deep, strong features
disguise your empty soul
distracted by my ignorance
your eyes quickly turn to coal

who knows why i listened
what a stupid thing to think
my trust is out the window
and my love for you will sink

i want to just forget
to banish you from mind
but you stained my pale skin
and with your beauty made me blind

fear is my emotion
i'm scared of all your words
yet sadness is arising
tears are all that support my world

shadows lurking
find my grief
because you left me bear
i don't blame you for your hatred
i just wanted you to care

when you smile i see your falseness
maybe i'm the only one
you can hide your life behind your eyes
and they'll miscount the sum
it might be that i don't know
all my memories are fake
if you could tell ym why
i would mend all my mistakes

we are so different
from our form before
i admire your strength to hate me
i believed there was something more