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You heard me. I'm so completly frustrated and confused and unsure and alone. I feel like theres nothing left for me here, but what am I supposed to do? I have the apt til next september and the semester just started. I'm so alone and feel like I have no one. Everyone here is always busy or hanging out with there bf and gf's and whatnot. Its just so frustrating. I dont have a best friend right now. I have some closer friends, but not one best friend. My closest friends right now...one lives in Ohio, and the other one I just met. The reason he's already one of my best friends is cuz he knows more of whats going on with me than anyone except for Jay (ohio Jay).
I just feel like theres nothing left for me here. I'm always alone. I dont have a passion for the things I'm doing, except soccer. And then last night I meet this guy who I end up talking to til 6 am. He has to move back to the other side of Wisconsin by the end of the month and he said he wanted me to go with. Whether he was joking or not I have no idea. He said it kinda sarcastically but I think he was somewhat serious. I dunno. Well anyways, this got me thinking. I have nothing here, nothing holding me back. Maybe I should go to school out there. Spread my wings. Yeah, I'd be farther away from home, but everyone is leaving soon anyways. So I dunno. Thats whats on my mind. Well mostly. I just dont know what to do anymore. I feel out of place here. Yeah, the last 2 years have been great and I've met tons of awesome people...but why do I feel so alone? I dont know. I just dont know....
I just feel like theres nothing left for me here. I'm always alone. I dont have a passion for the things I'm doing, except soccer. And then last night I meet this guy who I end up talking to til 6 am. He has to move back to the other side of Wisconsin by the end of the month and he said he wanted me to go with. Whether he was joking or not I have no idea. He said it kinda sarcastically but I think he was somewhat serious. I dunno. Well anyways, this got me thinking. I have nothing here, nothing holding me back. Maybe I should go to school out there. Spread my wings. Yeah, I'd be farther away from home, but everyone is leaving soon anyways. So I dunno. Thats whats on my mind. Well mostly. I just dont know what to do anymore. I feel out of place here. Yeah, the last 2 years have been great and I've met tons of awesome people...but why do I feel so alone? I dont know. I just dont know....