why me?
I dont understand it. Like you said Char, we should just switch for a day so i dont have so many guys to worry about. gggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. so things were going alright with that one guy, and i let my gaurd down a little, but now it seems like i may have left it down to far and am now in farther then i wanted to be. I guess i just dont see him the way that i thought.
So i was playing poker the other night with people that i usually dont play with anymore cuz i'm dating Tim. Anywho, the one guy that was playing i swore i recognized. Sure enough it was who i thought it was. The guy that owns the bowling alley in Norwood, its his son. I had seen him before cuz i used to be on a league there. Well we talked a little Thursday night, then Friday night i got completely wasted and ended up throwing up, but we were kinda flirting then. He had a gf at this time so i wasnt doing that much flirting even for being drunk. Saturday night we went out to my friends place again and i got drunk again, not nearly as bad as the night before. Well he was my sober cab and basically a little more flirting was going on. The way back home, he had his hand on my leg and my hand on his hand. He walked with me up to my room and we talked for a bit more and then i gave him a hug and he left. Well tonight, we played poker and he was drinking, and yes you guessed it, more flirting. Oh yeah, the night before he told me he broke up with his gf. Well after poker, he walked with me to park my car and we sat outside for like an hour and a half and just talked. . . and ended up doing something. . . yes kissing. Oh ya and Saturday night he told me he'd fly me anywhere for free and that he'd get me poker chips. I told him not to get me poker chips, but when he called me today he said they'd be here next week. He works for the Timberwolves by the way.
So in conclusion, I'm torn. I always get myself into these situations and for some reason i always end up hurting someone including myself. I really like this guy, but yet at the same time i feel i'm kinda rushing things like i did with Tim. I like this other guy and he's been like my best friend for the last few months here at school and now i feel like i'd lose that friendship or hurt him a lot at least. I got people telling me to go for my best friend and i got people telling me to go for the guy from home. I know i have to listen to my heart and my heart is telling me that i just dont see my best friend as anything more and that things with this new guy...they may work, but i love hanging out and just being around him. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr monkey
love always
Crystal
this makes me a little happier however ; ) love ya
So i was playing poker the other night with people that i usually dont play with anymore cuz i'm dating Tim. Anywho, the one guy that was playing i swore i recognized. Sure enough it was who i thought it was. The guy that owns the bowling alley in Norwood, its his son. I had seen him before cuz i used to be on a league there. Well we talked a little Thursday night, then Friday night i got completely wasted and ended up throwing up, but we were kinda flirting then. He had a gf at this time so i wasnt doing that much flirting even for being drunk. Saturday night we went out to my friends place again and i got drunk again, not nearly as bad as the night before. Well he was my sober cab and basically a little more flirting was going on. The way back home, he had his hand on my leg and my hand on his hand. He walked with me up to my room and we talked for a bit more and then i gave him a hug and he left. Well tonight, we played poker and he was drinking, and yes you guessed it, more flirting. Oh yeah, the night before he told me he broke up with his gf. Well after poker, he walked with me to park my car and we sat outside for like an hour and a half and just talked. . . and ended up doing something. . . yes kissing. Oh ya and Saturday night he told me he'd fly me anywhere for free and that he'd get me poker chips. I told him not to get me poker chips, but when he called me today he said they'd be here next week. He works for the Timberwolves by the way.
So in conclusion, I'm torn. I always get myself into these situations and for some reason i always end up hurting someone including myself. I really like this guy, but yet at the same time i feel i'm kinda rushing things like i did with Tim. I like this other guy and he's been like my best friend for the last few months here at school and now i feel like i'd lose that friendship or hurt him a lot at least. I got people telling me to go for my best friend and i got people telling me to go for the guy from home. I know i have to listen to my heart and my heart is telling me that i just dont see my best friend as anything more and that things with this new guy...they may work, but i love hanging out and just being around him. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr monkey
love always
Crystal
this makes me a little happier however ; ) love ya