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i hate when i do this... i always get soo happy for some reason then SOMEONE always has to put me down... it fucking sucks major ass... too bad i WAS happy and excited about certain things... and now i'm just depressed... this shit makes me think about old times and questions that still haven't been answered... why did my best friend have to die?! the fuck did he do wrong?! HE was the one who helped me through all this shit! he was there for me whenever i needed him! but no... stupid fucking STONED rich little white boy decided to take his goddamn excursion and drive it right into the car where carlos was and flip it over causing it to take my best friend's life away... his brother told me he heard carlos calling for me when he was stuck under the car... calling for his best friend to be there with him to help him forget about the pain... he was even supposed to be at my fucking house but no where was he... he was DYING... YOU FUCKING BASTARD! DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT DRIVING WHILE UNDER THE INFLUENCE CAN KILL?!?!!?!?! FUCK YOU TO HELL ASSHOLE! IT'S CALLED MANSLAUGHTER!!!!!!!!! AND YOU DIDNT GET CAUGHT! THE FUCK?! just watch... you'll get found... and when you do... i'm gonna laugh and sock you in the face... carlos had NO reason to die... he had a WHOLE life ahead of him... he had sooo much happening for him in life... i miss him sooooo much... in 2 days it's gonna be 4 months that he's passed... i STILL dont know what to do with my life... it's so hard to move on from this shit... having a best friend there one day... and have him gone the next... just out of no where... when i found out i cussed at the person who told me, then called carlos' cell phone and a police man picked up.... he told me it was true and i cussed at him as well... it's not the easiest thing to hear that your best friend just died because of a driver 'under the influence'... fuck this shit... too bad i'm crying my eyes out and nothing's gonna make me feel better but some loving helping words from some people who DO care....... yea... too bad NO ONE fucking gives a shit.....