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Wow, seems like a whole lifetime has passed since I last posted.
What am I doing awake anyway at this time when really, I should be sleeping. Not that I can’t but I don’t want to. I don’t want to miss the day the things I could be doing, the experiences I should be having. But what are they? I am still to learn.
I am so afraid of missing the future that I miss the present. I know it and yet I still cannot get over it.
So the last time I posted was more than a year ago and... I work now. Yes. I graduated and I work now. I am one of those adult people I suppose with a job and concerns about finances and earning my keep.
I no longer worry about exams lol who am I kidding of course there are still exams - now I just worry about when to take them and “advance my career” and choose the “right path” for myself.
I have seen and felt so much. And there is still so much more to see. So much more to be.
What am I doing awake anyway at this time when really, I should be sleeping. Not that I can’t but I don’t want to. I don’t want to miss the day the things I could be doing, the experiences I should be having. But what are they? I am still to learn.
I am so afraid of missing the future that I miss the present. I know it and yet I still cannot get over it.
So the last time I posted was more than a year ago and... I work now. Yes. I graduated and I work now. I am one of those adult people I suppose with a job and concerns about finances and earning my keep.
I no longer worry about exams lol who am I kidding of course there are still exams - now I just worry about when to take them and “advance my career” and choose the “right path” for myself.
I have seen and felt so much. And there is still so much more to see. So much more to be.