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I'm becoming needy. And I'm fully self-aware enough to know that it's because I've been immersed in the Twilight saga for a while. But I think about Paul every minute. I call him when I have nothing to say just because I want to be with him. Then I'm desperately trying to think of things to talk about so we don't have a reason to hang up. I just want to feel like he's sitting here on the couch with me. When we don't have to talk, but I can poke him with my toes or scratch his neck whenever I want.
Despite all the things that drive me crazy (and there are quite a few), which I think worries some people (myself included)... When he's not here all I want is for him to be here. I MISS the things that drive me crazy. When he's here all I want is for him to stay. I find real life easier with him. I know the happy-vacation-time is supposed to be the easy part and then couples struggle to deal with real life together. But I prefer the real life part. I like just sitting on the couch when he gets home and I just have to tilt my face up and he comes to kiss me hello. And I love when he goes to work at 5 am but always comes back to the bedroom to kiss me goodbye. I love lying in bed together reading our own books. That is the picture I have always had in my mind of a real relationship. And when it happens now I can't help but smile.
I want to know what it's like to be together without counting down till when we get separated again. I just want to marry him now. It makes me start wondering what I would sacrifice to make that happen.
Despite all the things that drive me crazy (and there are quite a few), which I think worries some people (myself included)... When he's not here all I want is for him to be here. I MISS the things that drive me crazy. When he's here all I want is for him to stay. I find real life easier with him. I know the happy-vacation-time is supposed to be the easy part and then couples struggle to deal with real life together. But I prefer the real life part. I like just sitting on the couch when he gets home and I just have to tilt my face up and he comes to kiss me hello. And I love when he goes to work at 5 am but always comes back to the bedroom to kiss me goodbye. I love lying in bed together reading our own books. That is the picture I have always had in my mind of a real relationship. And when it happens now I can't help but smile.
I want to know what it's like to be together without counting down till when we get separated again. I just want to marry him now. It makes me start wondering what I would sacrifice to make that happen.