In the mix
The worst things I can say I have done in the war created against me is to be heartbroken and give into temptation. I am faulted with calling too many times because I refused to believe the love of my life could truly be against me. I called, and would have stopped far sooner had I heard from her own voice that she thought such sick things about me, or even that she no longer wanted any contact with myself or her daughter. Now I can only thank God that her true nature was revealed before we had gone any further. I know in my heart that nothing less than her trying to kill me, and then trying to act like I tried to kill her despite the fact that I was sober and she was drunk and on drugs and I'm a pacificist; would have stopped me from being with her. I know it was the grace of God that created such an incident to seperate us, nothing less could have allowed my reason to overcome my love for her. Praise be to God. I do wish that I could have stayed with her and been happily married, but such a fate would not be ours. I have recieved much family support, and support from friends with this. While she will use her ability to twist the law in her favor, I consider representing myself, with only the truth as my guide. I do not know if I can support a political system where I must obtain council when I am a reasonable, educated, and logical person. I am highly considering representing myself, with the pictures, witnesses, (some as of yet unknown to the police), and facts to back my story up. Virtually everything I say can be supported, from her not wanting me to call her family immediately afterwards, to her be conscious both when she was delivered papers and when I refused to testify to the police against her, as well as the fact that I was not hitting her back. I realize it is her nature to do anything to get what she wants, but I will continue to do what is right, trusting God to allow me to do his will. I refuse to ask HIM to do mine. GJC