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ive been thinking a lot recently. actually i cant stop thinking. "maybe you do have a substance abuse problem" "let us make you take 3 separate education and counseling classes". im stressed. and for some reason im not as strong as i usually am. i think im worn out from trying to handle all of this. it's one thing to constantly work knowing that all of this money is going to courts, lawyers, classes, and fines but it's another to make me take classes and tell me that im basically a stupid alcoholic. i rarely drink. i would say im a normal drinker if not drink less than the normal drinker. uh. i have much more going on in my mind but i never like sharing or venting. haha as i vent. i broke down last night. it felt good. thanks paul.