Something new and exciting
There is something that I would love to talk about. I'm not very eloquent with my writing - it was never my strong suit - however I still want to give this a shot. I always speak from the heart and I'm open with letting my thoughts and feelings come out on paper, or in this case on an e-journal.
The best place to start is at the very beginning, so let's start there. The story is still being written as I write this, but I want to catalog what I have to share thus far. It all began on November 3 on a dating website, Skout. I was incredibly bored and looking for some sort of entertainment to sustain me that night. So, I figure why not just log back onto my forgotten Skout account and search around for guys and see who's out there.
I wasn't at all looking to chat with any of them, I was just curious to see some of the typical make banter that is left on pictures of the females as they all gawk and fawn over them. As I was scrolling along, I saw this guy that could easily be passed as an Abercrombie and Fitch model, he was that good looking. I really mean it when I say he's the most attractive guy I've seen in a long while. Curious, I opened his profile and sure enough he had a few selfies posted. According to his profile, he was around my age and living in New York.
I didn't think much on what I should do because before I knew it I was favoring his profile. Within the very next day, I logged back on and noticed that he "winked" at me. I couldn't believe it! Feeling confident, I "winked" back at him. It didn't take long before he started the conversation and we got to talking. We instantly found out we had a shared passion for music and, go figure, he is also a musician! This guy couldn't get more perfect even if he tried, right? He soon asked for my number so he can send me some videos of his music and, though hesitant, I sent him my digits.
It wasn't long before we were texting each other every day thereafter. Though there have been a lot of bumps along the road, we have very strong feelings for one another. It was only two days ago where after a day of texting and mentioning wanting to call eachother soon, he goes ahead and calls me up at 3am. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. I was excited and anxious all at the same time, but we talked as if we were good friends from eons ago. During that phone call, a lot of walls were taken down and we opened up a lot to eachother. He told me about his ambitions as a musician but being stuck in a College he doesn't want to be in, thinking his parents are disappointed in him, being teased back in High School for having his YouTube music channel being the talk amongst everyone, his feelings about us and the future, etc. Oh my part during that talk, I spoke about my troublesome past with excessive bullying and how I am a different person because of it, my feelings about him and the future, etc.
Something that I was definitely not expecting was to cry during that conversation. I had just finished talking about my bullying and how I craved acceptance from my peers but I never got it. I expressed to him about how I hold back a lot of my feelings and my need to be affectionate with others because I worry over whether said person will find me annoying or a burden - it stems from my past experiences with bullying. He told me that those who hurt me at school didn't understand the giving person I was, but he also said that I was definitely not a burden. At that moment I started to cry. Nobody has ever told me that I wasn't a burden, and in such a sincere and genuine way. Needless to say, he thought it was pretty cute that I started crying because of that. As the morning rolled in and the sun began to rise, we finally called it in when the clock struck 7am. After that phone call ended I knew that I don't want to be this way with anybody else. We had already talked a lot about how we were falling for each other, but boy did I FALL.
There are still a lot of things that i'm not comfortable talking about with people and I do have things that I have honestly nevertold anyone , not even my parents of best friend, but I have a feeling that with time I will be open enough to have him be the first one I tell a lot of things to. That takes a lot of trusting him on my end, and it takes a lot for him to trust me when he opens up with me - he told me that he is the kind that never really opens up with many people because he has a hard time trusting, as do I. One thing is for sure, I look forward to more late night phone conversations and seeing where the future takes us. Even with all of those whom I have loved and wished to love, there is something innately different about this. He expressed the same thoughts - he could tell I was different from a lot of the girls he met and that he can see me helping him grow into a better person.
Right, well as of now there isn't much to explain elsewise. Maybe now i'll get into a bit about him and see if I can share a few pictures/videos of him. His name is Michele Olivieri, and yes he is Italian - he goes by Mick and Micky. His family is all Italian and he was raised in England up until he left for University in New York this year. He is 19, his birthday is March 5 (Pieces!), and he has two younger brothers and a younger sister. He's going to College for Business, to which he hates and he really has no desire to be there, but he really aspires to be a Musician. Going off of that, he has a YouTube channel where he has posted covers for the past 2 years but he intends on deleting them all and starting fresh with better material all around (that's just according to his own words but I feel like they are still very good)
Now onto the shameless display of pictures/videos
The first three are the picture's he has personally sent me so far on text/snapchat. I told you all he was handsome. But that's just a great bonus, of course.
Alright, I don't know how I'll add the videos in here but this is his YouTube channel for ref.
http://www.youtube.com/user/MicheleOlivieriMusic
The best place to start is at the very beginning, so let's start there. The story is still being written as I write this, but I want to catalog what I have to share thus far. It all began on November 3 on a dating website, Skout. I was incredibly bored and looking for some sort of entertainment to sustain me that night. So, I figure why not just log back onto my forgotten Skout account and search around for guys and see who's out there.
I wasn't at all looking to chat with any of them, I was just curious to see some of the typical make banter that is left on pictures of the females as they all gawk and fawn over them. As I was scrolling along, I saw this guy that could easily be passed as an Abercrombie and Fitch model, he was that good looking. I really mean it when I say he's the most attractive guy I've seen in a long while. Curious, I opened his profile and sure enough he had a few selfies posted. According to his profile, he was around my age and living in New York.
I didn't think much on what I should do because before I knew it I was favoring his profile. Within the very next day, I logged back on and noticed that he "winked" at me. I couldn't believe it! Feeling confident, I "winked" back at him. It didn't take long before he started the conversation and we got to talking. We instantly found out we had a shared passion for music and, go figure, he is also a musician! This guy couldn't get more perfect even if he tried, right? He soon asked for my number so he can send me some videos of his music and, though hesitant, I sent him my digits.
It wasn't long before we were texting each other every day thereafter. Though there have been a lot of bumps along the road, we have very strong feelings for one another. It was only two days ago where after a day of texting and mentioning wanting to call eachother soon, he goes ahead and calls me up at 3am. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. I was excited and anxious all at the same time, but we talked as if we were good friends from eons ago. During that phone call, a lot of walls were taken down and we opened up a lot to eachother. He told me about his ambitions as a musician but being stuck in a College he doesn't want to be in, thinking his parents are disappointed in him, being teased back in High School for having his YouTube music channel being the talk amongst everyone, his feelings about us and the future, etc. Oh my part during that talk, I spoke about my troublesome past with excessive bullying and how I am a different person because of it, my feelings about him and the future, etc.
Something that I was definitely not expecting was to cry during that conversation. I had just finished talking about my bullying and how I craved acceptance from my peers but I never got it. I expressed to him about how I hold back a lot of my feelings and my need to be affectionate with others because I worry over whether said person will find me annoying or a burden - it stems from my past experiences with bullying. He told me that those who hurt me at school didn't understand the giving person I was, but he also said that I was definitely not a burden. At that moment I started to cry. Nobody has ever told me that I wasn't a burden, and in such a sincere and genuine way. Needless to say, he thought it was pretty cute that I started crying because of that. As the morning rolled in and the sun began to rise, we finally called it in when the clock struck 7am. After that phone call ended I knew that I don't want to be this way with anybody else. We had already talked a lot about how we were falling for each other, but boy did I FALL.
There are still a lot of things that i'm not comfortable talking about with people and I do have things that I have honestly nevertold anyone , not even my parents of best friend, but I have a feeling that with time I will be open enough to have him be the first one I tell a lot of things to. That takes a lot of trusting him on my end, and it takes a lot for him to trust me when he opens up with me - he told me that he is the kind that never really opens up with many people because he has a hard time trusting, as do I. One thing is for sure, I look forward to more late night phone conversations and seeing where the future takes us. Even with all of those whom I have loved and wished to love, there is something innately different about this. He expressed the same thoughts - he could tell I was different from a lot of the girls he met and that he can see me helping him grow into a better person.
Right, well as of now there isn't much to explain elsewise. Maybe now i'll get into a bit about him and see if I can share a few pictures/videos of him. His name is Michele Olivieri, and yes he is Italian - he goes by Mick and Micky. His family is all Italian and he was raised in England up until he left for University in New York this year. He is 19, his birthday is March 5 (Pieces!), and he has two younger brothers and a younger sister. He's going to College for Business, to which he hates and he really has no desire to be there, but he really aspires to be a Musician. Going off of that, he has a YouTube channel where he has posted covers for the past 2 years but he intends on deleting them all and starting fresh with better material all around (that's just according to his own words but I feel like they are still very good)
Now onto the shameless display of pictures/videos
The first three are the picture's he has personally sent me so far on text/snapchat. I told you all he was handsome. But that's just a great bonus, of course.
Alright, I don't know how I'll add the videos in here but this is his YouTube channel for ref.
http://www.youtube.com/user/MicheleOlivieriMusic