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[deep_blue_skye]

i hate that my family has to suffer!! its not fair!! they're good people and they dotn deserve to have to live this way!! my dad hasnt been happy in forever and he's so stressed and those bits wont leave him alone about the money!!!! i want to swear so hard core right now im so angry!! and im not just angry, im hurt, i think i could cry . . . my dad was talking to me about it on the phone and i started to sob but had to stop because he was catching on and i dont want him to know . . . i swear i hate money!!! i hate it!!!!!! i hate that my sister and brother dont get what others get! i hate it all!!! i hate it!!! they dont deserve it! they've been more faithful than tons of those rich bits at church and i just wanna scream!!!!! it never ends! the white trash, the forrest white trash . . . never having clothes to wear, feeling like trash amoungst all the rich people here. and yet they demand more!! they want blood for money . . . ill give them blood . . .

im going to be an assassin . . . im going to get those people back . . . make them pay, since they make my family. im going to get really violent in a minute. if i wasnt a christian i think id be a stripper . . . for the money, cause i could save them . . . selling blood, i can sell my blood . . . they're so desprate for my family's anyway