snars and fnars

[deenojalapeno]

reality checks
are sometimes painful
to realise
and realize
and realize

But this time when I look into the mirror, not all is different from what I had imagined
or is it?
Self doubt nags at me
I see where the sources are coming from though

Some days I feel too tired for my age.
And for that I feel guilt from the voices of criticism
why should you be tired! You're young and strong!
You don't even know what tired is!!
     "       "                                -poor is!!
     "        "                               -hard work is!!
     "        "                               -pain is!!
You don't have the right to complain about ~insert anything here~.

And so I feel guilt. From the long time loops that play in my head.

I am going to chase them away, those nagging voices.
Chase them away with my dog Buddy  running beside me.
I will chase the voices and dump them in the ocean,
with concrete slippers and a trailing kelp scarf
to wine with and dine with the company of fishes
The Seals shall work with the M'Aitre Dee,
scurrying about the undersea.

For giving birth to a baby beluga
in the deep blue sea
is a difficult task for regular me
i must crack away a carapace
the seals shall help me
craftily and expertly
with a swift crunch~flip!

Emergence renewed
fresh skin glowing radiantly
like a see through froggie egg...