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[deenojalapeno]

how do I put to words whats going on?
I totally totally loved hanging out with you.
It was gratifying on many levels.
It was reassuring, learning, and healing.
It was challenging and reflective.
Its left me wanting so much more.
flash memories from childhood, i wish i could have been with you more.
could we have saved one another from our trials?
perhaps not...
but thank you just the same.
my heart aches because I want your company some more.
I hope its true we can see each other more.
how much more can i say more...

my feelings are all churned up.
old sediment raised up to the top....
can i say i love you? is it appropriate?
well, i think it is. so there.