i haven't updated in years

[deenastars]

god it has been so long since i have said anything on live journal
there is so much that has changed in my life....

reasently
i got a job at golden corral
i broke up with preston
me and nick had our first actuall conversation in a year and a half
i'm graduating
i live with my grandma
i have become more aware of my insanity
my dad is doing alright
my mom is doing better
i still have panic attacts and freak out alot
my middle name is del rhea
i miss many people that i would name but thats just too hard
so maybe just think its you and it might be!!!

I WANNA GO TO UT!!!!!

i cant wait to feel secure and be free at the same time
i cant wait until preston grows up so i can actually be with him
and not have to worry about the silly stuff he pulls all the time

i have been friying my brain for the past 2 months smoking pot everyday

oh and i'm actually getting good grades
i want to have things somewhat normal with all my old relationships
but people are gay and retarted and wont take chances with my phyco ass

hee hee well now i just dont know what to say

I GET TO GO TO NIN IN AUSTIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK YAH MANE

LOVE ALWAYS -N- FOREVER

DEENA

oh i got a new cell number so if you want to call me hit me up and we will chill