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Beh. Well so much for standing up for myself or not being a victim. I act like a victim and dont have a backbone.
Thursday Michael and I had an arguement and he said he is never comming back to my place until there is no more snow (he cannot find parking ever as I live in a busy part of downtown). Now this morning he left for Toronto to see a concert he will be driving something like 12+ hours back and forth without sleep and there is a fucking snow storm. Go figure. Im working all weekend so I cant go. I woudnt have gone anyways cause he was leaving at like 6 this morning. I just want to get out of this vicious circle that my life has become. I dont like to go to his place anymore, he doesnt make me feel comfertable there. He takes advantage of the fact it is his place to control everything. Well I guess if he doesnt want to come over and I dont want to go there then there is no alternative. He also told me that if I cant get a day job then we cannot live together. Lots of people live together and are not on the same shift. Anyways. Is this doomed? Its going to be 9 months we are together tuesday. How can you love someone so much, and cry so much...and he isnt even doing anything that is wrong really, besides the fact he is a pain in the ass about comming here.
Look at this, its only me complaining. I am such a big fucking baby. ugh
Thursday Michael and I had an arguement and he said he is never comming back to my place until there is no more snow (he cannot find parking ever as I live in a busy part of downtown). Now this morning he left for Toronto to see a concert he will be driving something like 12+ hours back and forth without sleep and there is a fucking snow storm. Go figure. Im working all weekend so I cant go. I woudnt have gone anyways cause he was leaving at like 6 this morning. I just want to get out of this vicious circle that my life has become. I dont like to go to his place anymore, he doesnt make me feel comfertable there. He takes advantage of the fact it is his place to control everything. Well I guess if he doesnt want to come over and I dont want to go there then there is no alternative. He also told me that if I cant get a day job then we cannot live together. Lots of people live together and are not on the same shift. Anyways. Is this doomed? Its going to be 9 months we are together tuesday. How can you love someone so much, and cry so much...and he isnt even doing anything that is wrong really, besides the fact he is a pain in the ass about comming here.
Look at this, its only me complaining. I am such a big fucking baby. ugh