procrastination at it's best.
i haven't written a real blog in a fortnight. [yeah, fancy words from suite life. XD]
and i seriously do not want to do my process paper.
sooo yeah. here we go.
i finally found someone i can really see treating me the way i want to be treated. his name is charlie, and i like him a lot ^_^ i went on a date with him on Friday, and now we're together :D he's just the sweetest kid, and he;s really funny, and very cute ;] I'm taking the lessons i learned from my past screwed up relationships and making sure i don't make the same mistakes again here. i like this kid wayy too much to fuck things up. I'm waiting on the L word && I'm not rushing into doing anything. taking things nice and slow is the way to go :]
i need a job soo bad. if i was the one making the choice, i wouldn't get a job right now, and just do my recycling and some cleaning around the house, because of school work and drama club stuff and thespian society stuff. but noooo, mom insists i get a real job. I'm applying to McDonald's today, but i am telling everywhere i go i can only work one day a week [Sundays, because it's the least affected day by my activities.] but as many hours as i can that one day. i don't think I'm honestly gonna get hired anywhere like that. but whatever, mother insists -.-U
if i had one of those machine things that could print shit on tee shirts, I'd do that as a job. i already have 5-6 ideas made on my computer already for tee shirts and more written down in a notebook. I've already had some people express interest in getting them if i can find a way to do it. there's always the custom shirt websites, but it would end up costing the person like $30 for the tee shirt if i want any profit from it, and that's too insane of a price to ask anyone to pay for a freakin tee shirt. if you guys have any suggestions on how i could do something like this [besides iron-on paper... that shit washes off in the wash over not too much time. those of you i made tee shirts for in like 7th or 8th grade should know for sure XD] let me know ASAP.
I'm going to i-con this upcoming April. I'm kinda being forced, but i do really want to go. i always hear how amazingly fun it is, and now i have the chance to experience it for myself. I'll probably dress up as deidara from naruto, only because our names are similar, and i think i went through a year or so of my life being called that by naruto fans who didn't feel like learning how to pronounce my name correctly. XD but i could soo pull it off. i mean, c'mon, just look:
i don't care if he is a man, i will do it. XDDD i just need to get his headband thing and the ring and whatnot. charlie has the robe thingy for me to borrow, so I'm set on that. :P
I'm eating cookie dough out of an ice cream cone right now. pure genius, i say! PURE GENIUS!!!
o.e ...i need to sleep more...
okay, i know i want to go into computer graphics when i get older, but i don't even know what kind of computer graphics field thing. there's soo much. advertising is a big one, but i want to know what else is out there. but every time i think about this, I'm not able to search it, and by the time i am, my myspace addiction overpowers me. it's quite horrible.
I'm getting into that whole manga obsession again. i want to read whatever i can get my hands on! which is why I'll probably be taking a trip to the library sooner or later... probably later.
i find it hilarious that the past few days that Mrs. Adams wasn't here for voice class, people looked to me for organization and authority. it was different, especially being in the music field. I'm usually not the one to be looked at when it comes to teaching people things about music [example 1: alto section leader in advanced chorus...nuff said.], but here they did. it was nice. i mean, I'm not the best at it, but i manage to help [especially if i can find someone else to play the piano. I'm dreadful at it. XD] and they do learn. it's a good laugh when people start asking me if they can go get a drink or go to the bathroom, and I'm like "...ask the teacher *points to the sub who is sitting in the corner reading a magazine or pretending to listen to us sing*" it's quite lawlzy.
i found a box of old fortune cookie fortunes under my desk today. there are some really nice ones. if i can get a shitload of them, i could just go to the box with any problem, and pick out a fortune and it will make things all better. XDDD Some of my favorites are: "Fate will find a way." "Happiness is not the absence of conflict, but the ability to cope with it," "A kiss? The renunciation of the heart when one is no longer alone." "Do not fear failure." And finally, "Believe it can be done." These are truly some decent pieces of advice. At least i think so. :O
I want to do something different with my hair. Should i get the perm I've been talking about for like a month now and have my hair curly all the time? Should i dye it a new color? Streaks? Funky colors? Get the under of my hair dyed? There are so many different possibilities when it comes down to it. Tell me what you think.
I think this might be the longest blog I have written yet. kinda exciting :P
I have this weird way of thinking about music. When i listen to some songs, unless it really hits close to home, i think about other people experiencing the feelings the song portrays. Sometimes, I'm like "oh, that must be what so and so felt when i did this to them." i just think it's strange that I think like that. sometimes it's a good thing, sometimes not so much. whatevs. thought I'd just tell you all.
OH! billy Elliot is so close by! and then 10 days after is Hanson!!!! i cannot wait!!!! oh, Diana, where are we gonna go eat after billy Elliot? and to Diana&jessie, when we go to Hanson, bring whatever $$ you want to spend on concert garb & $$ for McDonald's. that's where we're probably gonna stop before going there.
I'm leaving to go take a look @ utopia and drop off my application for micky dee's. ba da bop bap baaa. NOT loving it... >.> it's 3:40 now, I'll just continue when i get back.
4:40 now... woo!
so i was listening to across the universe in the car on the way there. i got so lost in singing the music, when we got to McDonald's, i forgot why we were there. XDDDD
i also realized something else. when I'm not thinking about how well i am singing, or the technicalities in the music, and just focusing on singing just to sing and have fun, and feeling the emotions and thinking about people who give me those emotions, i sing much better. when i was singing hold me tight, i was thinking about charlie, and it sounded, like, amazing. i don't think i can ever do it again, or in front of people [the only people in the car were my mom and grandma, and they've heard me sing way too much, so i didn't care that they were listening], but it was nice when it happened.
i might apply for k mart too. I'm pretty much applying for a lot of the jobs my mom used to have, and i didn't realize it til today. it's strange. whatevs.
i inherited soo much from my mom. we look really alike, and i have her low woman voice, and i act the way she does. i really didn't inherit much from my dad, besides small boobs and the ability to gain weight fast around the waist. i kinda like that I'm more like my mom. she's a good person, no matter how much she can annoy the shit out of me sometimes.
do you guys think that i am aggressive? my mom is worried that I'm too aggressive for relationships sometimes, like i am the initiator in things more often, and that i hang all over people or something. i knew i was a little bit aggressive, but not that much. whatevs.
i have no idea what i want to be for Halloween. i went into a Halloween store today, and the costumes were really not that good. I think i might go as a three headed masquerade queen or something like that, and use cosmotology heads for the extra 2 heads. or a three headed something. i don't know.
okay, im running out of things to talk about, and im just rambling now. so comment it up, and i'll talk to you all soon!
<3 Deege [who just now realized she still has that stupid paper to do >.<]