oh. my. goodness.

[deegemonster]

if you think you've seen me cry over something stupid before
last night was the WORST.
loved international night
but... under the... ahem... circumstances...
i almost cried right then and there. 
but i held it back tll i got home and everyone was sleeping.
why is it that i ALWAYS happen to choose guys who dont like me?
or they like someone else and they like them 
and they sit there and cuddle and shit right in front of me and rub it in my face?
ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS!!!!
and now, because im getting so hurt, 
i'm having miniscule crushes on people that i know i wouldnt normally have.
i just need to stop. my brain is gonna turn into mushhhhh.
the only good thing that could possibly come out of this is
i have more inspiration than ever for broadway night
if you didnt know, im singing "there's a fine, fine line"
totally apropriate, huh?
im gonna clean, get dressed, practice, eat, go to la boheme, and hopefully hang out with nikki
then mall tomorrow hopefully.
maybe that'll cheer me up?
hopefully.

there's a fine fine line between love, and a waste of your time....
when i sing those sad love songs
you're all that's on my mind

i think i'll write some poetry later
<3 Deege