rant shmant
how am i supposed to do this? I am of a sense, a failed artist- I dropped out of art school and worked in a cafe, classic. now Im back here and this is what they tell me biology is these days "the chemistry of the origins of life was most likely dependent upon a gradient of conditions (c) dc, as a function of time (t) dt, beginning with hot organic syntheses of components and continuing with less energetic chemistry of polymerization; and lastly, the low temperature era of structure-mediated catalysis which ended with the appearance of cells." its calculus! Its not even chemistry (which I did really badly in but am taking again so as to keep myself up to date) its calculus, which I took two whole years ago, and didnt grasp too wholy then and certainly have not suddenly mastered in the last 2 math-less years o'mine. I panic at the very thought of school and of what the hell I am going to do with this once I leave. Somebody please tell me why I need to know about orbitals and derivatives (and no, I am NOT going to be a chemist or a micro micro biologist. If anything I want to be an ecologist. But then what the hell am I going to do with that? Really I just want to move down to brooklyn and start a cafe/art collective. Or sit out in the woods as a member of the national forestry. That would be awesome.) I assume that I need school, everyone always tells me I do, but again I am stuck wondering if and why it is worth all this money. It costs SO much, just in books and suppplies, and then ad 30,000 a year on top of that- rutabaga!