Empty like a box after christmas morning...
ive been ditched...
adn it scuks...
and im sad..
and im lonely...
i have no one here to talk to...
or anyone else..
what the fuck...
this is my summer vaction... im supposed to be having loads of fun right? no... not really...
my stomavh hurts...
my head hurts..
my heart hurts...
seeing all these hott british boys... u think id be like OH AH OMG... btu im not... and all im thinking about is my dork machine...
and its not cool...
gahhh whem will this pain stop?
i fucking hate love and everything that has to do with it...
this is why i said id NEVER do it again... and look at me... just look at me... im pathetic... just pathetic and i miss him more then he misses me... sometimes i just wsh hed mack with some cali gurl and forget about me... cuz thats wat im always expecting to happen... and it hasnt... and i dont want to forget about it for when the time does come... and me be heartbroken... i dont want that again i dont i dont... my heart is in pieces in my chest.. and i dont know how to fix it... i dont want it fixed for fear... for fear of it being broken again... im such an idiot... i think too much... i talk to much... and i do stupid things... i could easliy do bad things with darren... so easily... the chance has already come up... but i dont want to... and i dont want to... because i love my dork machine and thats all i think about... talk about... dream about... breathe of.. is him...
have you ever had that feeling? well it sucks... and now i feel empty inside...
someone told me i was beautiful yesterday... and i dont think im beautiful... cuz everyone at home says im ugly or fat or something else... he was a complete stranger and i was at the hospital going to see prince charles... he drove past and said i looked lovely from where he was standing on the bridge...
my eyes lit up... and i cried myself to sleep...
adn it scuks...
and im sad..
and im lonely...
i have no one here to talk to...
or anyone else..
what the fuck...
this is my summer vaction... im supposed to be having loads of fun right? no... not really...
my stomavh hurts...
my head hurts..
my heart hurts...
seeing all these hott british boys... u think id be like OH AH OMG... btu im not... and all im thinking about is my dork machine...
and its not cool...
gahhh whem will this pain stop?
i fucking hate love and everything that has to do with it...
this is why i said id NEVER do it again... and look at me... just look at me... im pathetic... just pathetic and i miss him more then he misses me... sometimes i just wsh hed mack with some cali gurl and forget about me... cuz thats wat im always expecting to happen... and it hasnt... and i dont want to forget about it for when the time does come... and me be heartbroken... i dont want that again i dont i dont... my heart is in pieces in my chest.. and i dont know how to fix it... i dont want it fixed for fear... for fear of it being broken again... im such an idiot... i think too much... i talk to much... and i do stupid things... i could easliy do bad things with darren... so easily... the chance has already come up... but i dont want to... and i dont want to... because i love my dork machine and thats all i think about... talk about... dream about... breathe of.. is him...
have you ever had that feeling? well it sucks... and now i feel empty inside...
someone told me i was beautiful yesterday... and i dont think im beautiful... cuz everyone at home says im ugly or fat or something else... he was a complete stranger and i was at the hospital going to see prince charles... he drove past and said i looked lovely from where he was standing on the bridge...
my eyes lit up... and i cried myself to sleep...