Quarter-life Questions
This wasn't written to make sense I guess. Courage.
Okay, so I was wrong. I'll learn to live with that. But what if I'm right, can anyone learn to live with that? I may never know. And no one may ever bother to try. Probably for the best. But could be proven the worst thing we'll ever see. A tragedy beyond all centuries. A moment in which God himself would weep for. A time when all we are left with in hindsight is bewilderment. I can learn to live with that. Or I can learn to ignore that I can't. I got my BOSS BR-532 Digital Studio. I am clueless how to operate this whole digital thing. MUCH more complex than analog. But my dumbfoundedness (it could be a word.) keeps me pre-occupied while my subconscious tries to figure the rest of it all out. I've made mistakes, made plenty. But, I wonder how many more wrong turns I make before I make the right one. What bugs me is thinking I made the right turns but others think they made the wrong turn when they saw me there. As though meeting me in the middle terrifies them in some way. Like I epitomize failure or something far worse. It's true I don't know, and the answers like everything take time and prayer. But I hate the waiting game. I begin to think it's worth it this time. Maybe this one time waiting is the right thing to do. I'm beginning to stop thinking that I'm wrong, and beginning to wonder how to make the rest of the world hear me out on all of that. I'm also not sure how else to say this, in anyway that suggests a complete thought.
Anyone make it through that?
Okay, so I was wrong. I'll learn to live with that. But what if I'm right, can anyone learn to live with that? I may never know. And no one may ever bother to try. Probably for the best. But could be proven the worst thing we'll ever see. A tragedy beyond all centuries. A moment in which God himself would weep for. A time when all we are left with in hindsight is bewilderment. I can learn to live with that. Or I can learn to ignore that I can't. I got my BOSS BR-532 Digital Studio. I am clueless how to operate this whole digital thing. MUCH more complex than analog. But my dumbfoundedness (it could be a word.) keeps me pre-occupied while my subconscious tries to figure the rest of it all out. I've made mistakes, made plenty. But, I wonder how many more wrong turns I make before I make the right one. What bugs me is thinking I made the right turns but others think they made the wrong turn when they saw me there. As though meeting me in the middle terrifies them in some way. Like I epitomize failure or something far worse. It's true I don't know, and the answers like everything take time and prayer. But I hate the waiting game. I begin to think it's worth it this time. Maybe this one time waiting is the right thing to do. I'm beginning to stop thinking that I'm wrong, and beginning to wonder how to make the rest of the world hear me out on all of that. I'm also not sure how else to say this, in anyway that suggests a complete thought.
Anyone make it through that?