Been Too Long

May 19, 2005 01:48


it's been a while since I've played with a church band, tonight was an experience. I found that I really miss the faith I was so bound to a few short years ago. I know I have myself to blame, it was fickle and wrong of me to push away my beliefs and moreover than simply ignore, but denounce. I know what you're thinking, "Don't miss it, fix it." Well, I am, and you suck for thinking too late. I haven't been able to speak about religion in a while without being a foolish heart. I think I just wanted to hate someone for the losses, because so many of the larger issues I've faced were such braising coincidences, I had to just shun something and religion was first to go. So ignorant, but either way, I know that I am going back to that person I was, and what's peaceful is I'm really going forward and not back, because I'm able to know that I am becoming the person I want to be. I made my first religious analogy in a while "God Is A Businessman." ask for details if it tickles your fancy I always wonder and ponder my calling, what it is, when I'll fulfill it. And I know that I'm on the way to it. Someday I'll know love from a woman who shares that ideology. A true love, one that transcends itself from heaven to bless me. However, until that day comes, I'll just keep progressing. To make a long story shorter, I found God. He was at Ruby Tuesday. He suggested The Blondie dessert. It was awesome. I owe him huge for that. 
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