saddness breaks me
again i am in computers and now i have just realised that i am not doing too good a little earlier i felt as though i should die and when you start thinking that it has gone too far and the i started to think who would miss me the most if i was dead. why would i think that? i dont want to die but it just seems logical if i am not here i wont disapoint my mom if im not hre i wont have to go to school if i am not here i wont be a failure and i wont have to suffer the rest of my life and everything. i should be doing my work but i have no modivation i almost do even fell like typing this but i have to get this out and maybe someone will help me or somthing.i dont know what to do and writing doesnt realy help as much as my theripist tells me it does someone that has gone through what i am going through give me some advise that helped you.... i dont know what to do.