no one wants to be alone at christmas time
ok, so i didn't make that up on my own, it's from a john mayer song.
i've been thinking about the ex lately, well, this morning and a little last night, because i babysat for a little boy who i hadn't babysat for since we were going out. well, the first time i babysat for him was the day after we started going out, and then this summer when i babysat during the day, we always txted all day and went out to do something that night. i guess he just makes me remember the good old days.
and, to complicate things even more, i had another dream last night about kissing my best friend. that makes 5. in my dreams, he's a really good kisser, though. it seems that whenever i'm down about my ex, he pops into my head. plus, the guy that i like has gone back to the no talking stage. well, he still kinda flirts, but only a little bit, not like he does sometimes. i think he's just confused about what to do, and i think he needs to know that i like him, but i don't know what to do about that.
i guess i'm down because last year the ex and i weren't going out at chirstmas, but i went to the beach and we talked the whole time, txting each other all day long almost every day. i miss that. if we'd stayed friends, we still could've talked, but he's got a new girl now, i think (he doesn't talk to me, and he sure wouldn't about that), so it would be weird for me to just txt him out of the blue over christmas vacation. that's okay, my best friend in the whole world (who's like family more than just a friend) will be down at the beach and i'll hang out with him the whole time, like i always do.
well, today's the sec championship and i think i might call my friend later and we'll do something before or after the game cuz i don't really wanna be alone at home today, and i really wanna hang with her. my friends that i do a lot of stuff with still remind me of the ex sometimes because we hung out all summer and they used to make fun of me cuz i'd say 'i love you, too' to him when we'd get off the phone.
i've been bringing down boxes of christmas stuff all morning after we went and got the tree from a very merry christmas tree (my mom had to get a frasier fur. she won't buy any other kind of christmas tree. we're not even going to be home for christmas, and we still have to buy the most expensive tree they make, but she'll buy the cheap off-brand food. explain that to me). the slave driver finally let me off, (well, actually we just got everything all down) so i think i'm gonna go read my book for a little while, or see what somebody's doing.
i've been thinking about the ex lately, well, this morning and a little last night, because i babysat for a little boy who i hadn't babysat for since we were going out. well, the first time i babysat for him was the day after we started going out, and then this summer when i babysat during the day, we always txted all day and went out to do something that night. i guess he just makes me remember the good old days.
and, to complicate things even more, i had another dream last night about kissing my best friend. that makes 5. in my dreams, he's a really good kisser, though. it seems that whenever i'm down about my ex, he pops into my head. plus, the guy that i like has gone back to the no talking stage. well, he still kinda flirts, but only a little bit, not like he does sometimes. i think he's just confused about what to do, and i think he needs to know that i like him, but i don't know what to do about that.
i guess i'm down because last year the ex and i weren't going out at chirstmas, but i went to the beach and we talked the whole time, txting each other all day long almost every day. i miss that. if we'd stayed friends, we still could've talked, but he's got a new girl now, i think (he doesn't talk to me, and he sure wouldn't about that), so it would be weird for me to just txt him out of the blue over christmas vacation. that's okay, my best friend in the whole world (who's like family more than just a friend) will be down at the beach and i'll hang out with him the whole time, like i always do.
well, today's the sec championship and i think i might call my friend later and we'll do something before or after the game cuz i don't really wanna be alone at home today, and i really wanna hang with her. my friends that i do a lot of stuff with still remind me of the ex sometimes because we hung out all summer and they used to make fun of me cuz i'd say 'i love you, too' to him when we'd get off the phone.
i've been bringing down boxes of christmas stuff all morning after we went and got the tree from a very merry christmas tree (my mom had to get a frasier fur. she won't buy any other kind of christmas tree. we're not even going to be home for christmas, and we still have to buy the most expensive tree they make, but she'll buy the cheap off-brand food. explain that to me). the slave driver finally let me off, (well, actually we just got everything all down) so i think i'm gonna go read my book for a little while, or see what somebody's doing.