KHR Fanfic: Nightingale [[8018]]

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This is an entry pertaining to KHR. Sorry to all those on my flist who don't know it. :X

Anyway, so, I don't know what happened, but all of a sudden I started crushing hard on Yamamoto lol. I mean, I've always liked him, but now my obsession for him just jumped like, a million times more. XD

Comments

[aquarian_days]

Aw, I really liked this! It's sort of hopeless and hopeful at the same time, if that makes sense. It's like, Yamamoto is convinced that the best he can do is to stand by Hibari's side, which seems awfully empty and unfulfilling, but at the same time, the fact that Hibari allows it, in his own Hibari-ish way, that's sorta like returning Yamamoto's feelings. (Which unfortunately, I don't think Yamamoto has quite understood yet.)

It was nice how the story came off as a snapshot of their relationship at a particular time. I felt like the ending left just enough of a question mark that you could see their relationship continuing to change--there's still plenty of things Yamamoto doesn't know about Hibari (like why he love Namimori so much, or even what Hibari actually likes about him), that yeah, their relationship still seems like a work in progress to me, much more than Yamamoto realizes. There was enough change and development in their relationship throughout the story that I don't things will stagnate here and I can see them continuing to grow as friends. And, I dunno, maybe as something more?

There were points where I almost felt like if Yamamoto had maybe pushed a little more, been a little less cautious, perhaps Hibari might actually have responded. Like when Yamamoto indirectly told Hibari that he loved him by confessing to loving Namimori, you could say Hibari's reaction was like an acceptance of those feelings. But, if Yamamoto doesn't decide that he wants more than the status quo, then he might not get it. (It's like Yamamoto is just as much of a roadblock to any romantic development as is Hibari's Spartan personality.) So, lots of different possibilities for these two after the end of this fic, which I really liked about it. Great job. ^_^

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You-You... I think I love you. ♥ Everything that I was trying to incorporate into this fic and its theme, you managed to catch them all. *offers you virtual cookie*

Anyway, to be a little more coherent COUGHCOUGH, I think, the problem with this thing, their relationship as a whole, is that this is told from Yamamoto's POV. As I was writing this, I discreetly put up Hibari's reaction everywhere, but readers don't often notice, because this is written from Yamamoto's POV, therefore, we interpret that maybe Hibari really doesn't love Yamamoto, as HE had thought.

While I can't say that Hibari might romantically love him (I can't say that he doesn't, either), one can tell that obviously Hibari cares for him to a certain degree to comfort him (in his own rough sort of way) after Yamamoto's inital shock from his first kill, or the fact that he even lets Yamamoto hangs around him at all. And you're perfectly right, maybe, just MAYBE, if he had pushed a bit more, their relationship might be closer than friendship, but alas, Yamamoto is that kind of a person, the kind who loves those he loves, without needing anything in return, and that's why this fic fits 8018 more than, say, D18 or other Hibari pairings, because Yamamoto is Yamamoto.

The main theme of this story is how Hibari is like a bird, and he can't be chained down by anything, thus, the story ends on this note, but I'm glad you realize that the ending IS quite vague, and maybe sometimes in the future it might develope into something more. The point of this fic isn't to write a romantic, sappy love story anyway. (In fact, I don't think there was anything vaguely resembling romance at all... =___=;;)

Lol the point is that Yamamoto needs to stop being so selfless all the time, but then again, that's what we all love about him, right? :)

And I'm sorry for the incredibly long comment. Thank you for reading~