So..............
So Im pregnant. I figured it out just after my birthday around when Joel broke up with me. I was super scared and totally not sure what to do. So I panicked and didnt tell anyone but the father and Amber. Well I decided to have it. Then I had to decide wether or not I was capable of taking care of it. Something that still scares me. But the way I see it I have training working with youth. I have a solid support system. And Davids not a dead beat so Ill be ok. My family is pretty excited. We havent had a baby around in forever. My brother and sister are really stoked to an aunt and uncles.
Im still pretty scared though. Im fully aware this is going to change my life. Mostly for the better but still. Im not so great with change. It scares me. Unless its moving but thats more running away than anything. I cant run away from this. I dont want to. I need to have this baby. Its going to make me who Im suppose to be. I have my place in the world and maybe this is it. Fate and karma has dealt me this hand and Im going to play it. Im going to try my hardest to be a good mom. I might not be able to give this kid everything they want but I will make sure they know they are special important and loved.
I moved out of jims finally. I live with Jeremy, Dynelle, Christina and Curt. In a house! They are the nicest most kind hearted funny people I think I have every met! I love the house too. Its spacious and pretty and quiet. Theres no stress here. Its just a good atmosphere. And if mom and cal cant find a place by the time I have the baby then I can stay here until they do. This baby is going to bring my life together Im sure. Its going to be dual beneficial.
I dont know what else to write because my life is all about this baby now.
Im still pretty scared though. Im fully aware this is going to change my life. Mostly for the better but still. Im not so great with change. It scares me. Unless its moving but thats more running away than anything. I cant run away from this. I dont want to. I need to have this baby. Its going to make me who Im suppose to be. I have my place in the world and maybe this is it. Fate and karma has dealt me this hand and Im going to play it. Im going to try my hardest to be a good mom. I might not be able to give this kid everything they want but I will make sure they know they are special important and loved.
I moved out of jims finally. I live with Jeremy, Dynelle, Christina and Curt. In a house! They are the nicest most kind hearted funny people I think I have every met! I love the house too. Its spacious and pretty and quiet. Theres no stress here. Its just a good atmosphere. And if mom and cal cant find a place by the time I have the baby then I can stay here until they do. This baby is going to bring my life together Im sure. Its going to be dual beneficial.
I dont know what else to write because my life is all about this baby now.