worst week ever.
i haven't written in a while so this might be weird. but here goes...
so the recently named worst week ever is officially over.
and when i say worst week ever i mean it. i come home thursday after a scholarship interview and my mom tells me that she gave up my two dogs, cleo and leela. what the hell?! thanks for telling me so that i could say goodbye! i didn't even get to spend any time with them at all recently because i'd been so busy. after she tells me all i do is take my other dog bruce and go outside. i stand outside for 10 minutes just calling their names. and sit there and cry cause of course they don't come. it was a sad, sad, and long night.
and then all the admission decisions came the next day and the only one i really cared about was rice [which is like my dream school] so i get an unexpected e-mail that says i'm not accepted and i was crusssshed. and i mean floored. i felt like all i had worked for in these twelve years meant absolutely nothing. i tried so hard and couldn't get where i wanted to go. i thought.. "how much worse could this get?" seriously.
so on monday i know that i have to go to the humane society to find my dogs. my mom said they'd be transferred there from the san juan facility after a couple of days. i have to say goodbye, i need to have my closure. i can't move on through life in anything without that closure. i drive to trenton and walk in and look through all the stalls for my two dogs. nothing, zip, zilch. i ask at the front. and the lady says "some dogs don't even make it here to the adoption center. they only come here if they're healthy and non-aggressive. or maybe they won't be here for another couple of days." i leave politely and walk to my car. i start bawling because i know that cleo's already gone cause she was sick with arthritis. she wouldn't have made it past the san juan animal control. but leela. leela's young and strong and "non-aggresssive". maybe, just maybe she's still out there.
even though i didn't get my closure, i don't think i wanna go back and find out that they'd been euthanized or anything. i just wanted to say goodbye. i'm so infuriated with my mother for doing it behind my back. i miss them.
but at least at work i have other things to think about and the worst week ever feelings are waning. thanks to cristi and khloe-bee. i <3 you guys. thanks loves... i'll miss you guys for easter!
happy easter everyone!
so the recently named worst week ever is officially over.
and when i say worst week ever i mean it. i come home thursday after a scholarship interview and my mom tells me that she gave up my two dogs, cleo and leela. what the hell?! thanks for telling me so that i could say goodbye! i didn't even get to spend any time with them at all recently because i'd been so busy. after she tells me all i do is take my other dog bruce and go outside. i stand outside for 10 minutes just calling their names. and sit there and cry cause of course they don't come. it was a sad, sad, and long night.
and then all the admission decisions came the next day and the only one i really cared about was rice [which is like my dream school] so i get an unexpected e-mail that says i'm not accepted and i was crusssshed. and i mean floored. i felt like all i had worked for in these twelve years meant absolutely nothing. i tried so hard and couldn't get where i wanted to go. i thought.. "how much worse could this get?" seriously.
so on monday i know that i have to go to the humane society to find my dogs. my mom said they'd be transferred there from the san juan facility after a couple of days. i have to say goodbye, i need to have my closure. i can't move on through life in anything without that closure. i drive to trenton and walk in and look through all the stalls for my two dogs. nothing, zip, zilch. i ask at the front. and the lady says "some dogs don't even make it here to the adoption center. they only come here if they're healthy and non-aggressive. or maybe they won't be here for another couple of days." i leave politely and walk to my car. i start bawling because i know that cleo's already gone cause she was sick with arthritis. she wouldn't have made it past the san juan animal control. but leela. leela's young and strong and "non-aggresssive". maybe, just maybe she's still out there.
even though i didn't get my closure, i don't think i wanna go back and find out that they'd been euthanized or anything. i just wanted to say goodbye. i'm so infuriated with my mother for doing it behind my back. i miss them.
but at least at work i have other things to think about and the worst week ever feelings are waning. thanks to cristi and khloe-bee. i <3 you guys. thanks loves... i'll miss you guys for easter!
happy easter everyone!