Departed Significant CR (Siren's Pull)
The People I Won't Forget
OOC Notes: This page is intended for the people that have dropped from Siren's Pull. Since it's a little depressing deleting people off of her CR list (and a pain in the neck to retype entries if they return), I decided to make a separate list here. Only people that had some sort of profound effect on Sarina's character will be found here. If the character didn't drop before 1/8/11, I'll include her notes from when they were still around, along with a blurb on how they impacted her life. If they character did drop before then though, I'll just include the blurb.
- Enemy/Hated
- Neutral/No opinion
- Barely acquainted/mildly positive opinion
- Better acquainted/friends
- Good friends
- BFFs
- People that are like family
- Crushes
ALEX MERCER ==> whipfist
(Probably
...not that she'll ever realize it now.)
He's really not all that talkative, but at the same time, he seems curious about a lot of things. I really don't know a whole lot about him, but I think he seems ok? He might be able to find me a second job, so really I don't think he's all that bad.
Just really hard to talk to.
11/29 - Okay, I take that back. He's not that hard to talk to. You just have to hit the right subject, I guess.
Apparently he has something inside of him too - some sort of disease? It enhances his abilities somehow - sometimes makes him numb to the destruction he causes. Sometimes he enjoys it.
In other words, it's similar to my connection with the Beast that still lurks within me. But he learned to control it. I wish I didn't have to associate with that part of me anymore, but the truth is that there might be instances where I might need the power to protect myself...and maybe others too.
Oh, but back to Alex. I think I feel a certain kinship with him. Not like my connection with the rest of my unit - they're like family. But I guess deep down? It's kind of nice to feel like I can relate to someone else.
12/7 - I'm starting to feel like he's the only person, besides Raven, that I can be honest with, without the fear of being judged. We still haven't actually met face to face, but we tell each other stuff that we probably can't speak with anyone else. I think I...trust him?
I'm worried about him though, since he apparently eats monsters. What if someone hates him for eating something out of the ordinary too? :(
12/19 - I ran into him for the first time, while I was trying to figure out the Octopus side of me. Surprisingly, he didn't seem scared by me, even when I thirsted for destruction within it. Also surprising was that even in that form, I didn't feel any desire to kill him. I guess I feel closer to him than I originally believed.
He walked me home too. He kind of seems unapproachable if you've only spoken to him once or twice, but I think he's just as confused about how this social thing works as I am.
12/23 - He actually spoke up on my behalf when some guy was being an ASSHOLE when I was just trying to find my roommate. I think that might be the first time someone's actually stood up for me. For sure I've become fond enough of him to consider him my favorite person in this city. Even considering all of my other friends that have disappeared, I think I feel the strongest connection with him (not counting my unitmate).
I just hope he doesn't disappear too. :(
1/3 - I feel bad that he kind of got gypped out on getting something when almost everyone else got something they desired. I guess he still had a dream about his sister...but I think that just upset him more than anything. Can't say I blame him - I'd be pretty upset if I had a dream about my family too. At least he wasn't directly involved with his family's death...that is if his sister actually died.
I tried to make him feel a little better, but I'm not sure if I actually did...I'm still pretty new the the whole consoling thing. Still...I offered to let him stay at my place, since all of the noise was bothering him. It's been pretty quiet since Raven left, after all.
2/1 - He wants to take down the corporations, and even if most others seem to question what he's doing, I'm going to help him. Not only do I also because I want to see both SERO and AGI taken down, but also because there's no way in hell I'm going to let him die.
Oh, we played some video games after discussing that stuff too. It was kind of fun...I hope we can do it again sometime.
2/15 - It's kind of weird. I totally didn't want to go out - because it's kind of boring sitting around bars with people you don't really know (not to mention my co-workers seemed to get bored with me pretty quickly anyway). At least that's what I think. But anyway, I ran into Alex there - it'd be a really strange event indeed (because I think he gets out even less than I do), until you realize he works there. I guess he really likes working the bar scene? Actually no, that was kind of the only options left to me too, for a while.
But we talked for a while - about the plan to steal the Core on Friday (here's hoping it works!). I got so excited over it that I...think I had to hold myself back from getting too excited over it, you know? Things could have been weird, to say the least and I really don't want things to be weird between us.
I'm still not quite sure how I would define our relationship - "kin" has admittedly always been a weird term, but "friend" seems too vague for how close we've become...but it's probably the nearest word for it. I'm just glad he considers me a friend too.
2/20 - We got ourselves into more trouble today...by helping blow up a SERO lab. But somehow a lot of other things got caught in the explosion too? That was weird, but I'm glad we were able to escape from it okay. We watched the destruction from a rooftop later. It was nice...really nice.
Although I always like spending time with him anyway.
I just need to figure out how to control my power better, so I can get down on my own without needing Alex to carry me again. I don't want to make extra work for him, you know?
2/26 - I told Alex about my past...the worst part of it. I kind of wonder if I'm burdening him with my trauma, but at the same time he deserved to know just how much of a Beast I really am. Not that he's ever judged me for it.
I guess it feels nice to have someone around that I feel I can be completely honest to. Even if it's only him.
3/2 - I was stupid, really stupid. But when it comes to those fucking cultists, I don't exactly think right. But...regardless, I kind of got myself in a bad situation - I might have even died if Alex didn't come help me. It was wonderful - to see the blood of those goddamned cultist bastards COVER the ground. I didn't even have to imagine it turning into ink -- I damned well wanted them all dead!
But I'm getting sidetracked here. The point is that I'm glad he's there for me, but I don't want to depend on him entirely. Even if it was a damned good time today.
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I haven't seen him since then. Hasn't called me, I haven't been able to call him, hasn't stopped by, haven't seen him around at Merlotte's...I know he has the tendency to disappear for long periods of time, but he wouldn't skip out on work, would he?
Maybe I shouldn't be so worried about him. I know he can take care of himself. But what if something bad happened to him? I relied on him so much...what if he felt that he couldn't rely on me? What if he's trapped somewhere and no one's bothering to help him? What if he's dead?!
Okay, so the last one might be jumping to conclusions, but after the last time we met...I can't help but be worried about it.
He's probably just hiding out again, right? He'll probably reappear out of nowhere like he usually does...and everything will be fine again...but it's not good to give myself false hope either.
Perhaps he's returned home. He can save his sister and make sure his town doesn't get blown up! So then, he won't have to worry about it. Maybe he'll have a peace of mind. I've long wanted it for myself, so I should be happy for him.
Should be.
...
Who am I kidding? How can I be truly happy when I know that he's not even going to remember who I am? I did everything with him! I trusted him more than I trusted anyone else! He's the only one I felt like I could relate to! Out of everyone that could have disappeared, why did it have to be him?!
Why do I bother getting close to people if they're just going to disappear later?!
What the fuck am I supposed to do?!
...okay. I had to stop writing for a while there. Let myself cool off. Maybe I'm just being over-dramatic. I have a tendency to do that. I'll look for him. The Lux doesn't reopen until the 31st, so it's not like I have anything better to do at night for a while. Maybe I can learn to get down from rooftops on my own, huh? I shouldn't be so dependent on anyone anyways.
But if I don't find him by then...I guess he's really gone. Maybe he'll come back, like Liquid did. If that's the case, I can't just sit around moping about it. I have to destroy both SERO and AGI by the time he gets back, so he won't have to worry about anything when he returns. Hopefully by then he'll have all of his issues resolved, so maybe he can finally relax.
Maybe then he won't want to leave.
RAGING BEAUTY ==> ragingbeauty
One of my unitmates from my world. I was so happy when she was brought into town, because she too could try to experience a life without nearly as much conflict!
But it wasn't meant to be. I'm doing everything I can to try to bring her -- and the rest of my unitmates -- back into town.
Although more and more, it's looking increasingly impossible. It's demoralizing.
CLAIRE BENNET ==> DELETED JOURNAL
She was my first real friend in town. Because of her, I really broke out of my shell and began to understand world outside of the battlefield, even if I still have a lot to learn. We really did a lot of things together and I'll miss her. I'm trying to be as helpful as she was to people, but I don't think I can make the same kind of impact on people that she had on me.
I'm not sure if she just disappeared, or if the Scarecrow killed her, but it distresses me that I wasn't able to protect her.
BROOKE ==> tapdancinskelly
He was the first person I spoke to in town. Although I was frightened by his appearance, at first, he quickly became one of my best friends in town. It's a shame that I didn't get to visit him more often.
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5/10 - I never thought I'd see him again, but today he showed up in the city again...and he remembered me! I gave him some advice, so that hopefully another woman will show him her underwear. But also, I think I've recruited him to my cause of destroying both companies.
Maybe then, the person I want to see again the most will return too.
7/18 - I don't know how the hell it happened (some card game???), but apparently he's human again! I'm happy for him, I guess, but I wonder if it's permanent?
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8/5 - An article on the newsfeed today says that an "animated skeleton" broke in past the gates of a SERO facility. Considering the fact that I can't seem to get into contact, that must mean that they got him too.
God damn it. How many more are they going to fuck with?! But I can sit here and complain or I can do something about it. I thought it was smart to bide my time, but if other people, people I care about, are getting hurt in my idleness, then I need to do something.
BIG BOSS ==> heavendivided
He really reached out to me, when I first arrived. He saved me from having to endure the apartments alone and gave me a place to stay in his Outer Heaven. He listened to my story and didn't shun me for it -- instead he told me that I didn't have to be the Octopus any longer and that I could become something beyond it.
Even if I've gotten my most trusted weapon, since his disappearance, I still keep the M16 he gave me as a token to remember him by. Even if I didn't know him for very long, he made an impact like few others have before. Never has anyone else gained my trust so easily.
APOLLO JUSTICE ==> judicatory
He seems kind of nervous a lot? But I'm not really one to talk about being nervous. He's really nice too though! I know I've been saying that a lot about everyone so far, but I really don't think he could be mean if he tried.
He said he might come to see me at work sometime! I hope he does! I just hope the guys at work aren't jerks to him. :(
12/10 - Well. That was a weird day. He actually came to see me but - I can't even explain it! It's like I'd be really sad if I parted from him and I just always wanted to be by him. I think he wanted the same too. But it only lasted a couple of hours.
I do like Apollo, but I don't think I could ever be with him - like that. He takes pride in working for the law, while I can never really trust it.
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He's gone now. It saddens me that I never really got to do anything for him, because of all the nice things he did for me...I'll hold onto his possessions and hope he comes back into the town someday.
SCARECROW ==> mindf_cks
I've never come across him myself, but he needs to be hunted down. He scared Claire, and it wouldn't be right for me to let someone like that run around. Maybe it's "wrong" for me to kill...but it should be okay if it's for a good cause, right?
Joker called Dr. Crane "Crow" on the network. Does this mean that he's him? But then again, it's Joker. I need to investigate this further, before I begin my chase.
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Sadly, the chase never got off the ground. Did someone else kill him already?
OOC Notes: This page is intended for the people that have dropped from Siren's Pull. Since it's a little depressing deleting people off of her CR list (and a pain in the neck to retype entries if they return), I decided to make a separate list here. Only people that had some sort of profound effect on Sarina's character will be found here. If the character didn't drop before 1/8/11, I'll include her notes from when they were still around, along with a blurb on how they impacted her life. If they character did drop before then though, I'll just include the blurb.
- Enemy/Hated
- Neutral/No opinion
- Barely acquainted/mildly positive opinion
- Better acquainted/friends
- Good friends
- BFFs
- People that are like family
- Crushes
ALEX MERCER ==> whipfist
(Probably
...not that she'll ever realize it now.)
He's really not all that talkative, but at the same time, he seems curious about a lot of things. I really don't know a whole lot about him, but I think he seems ok? He might be able to find me a second job, so really I don't think he's all that bad.
Just really hard to talk to.
11/29 - Okay, I take that back. He's not that hard to talk to. You just have to hit the right subject, I guess.
Apparently he has something inside of him too - some sort of disease? It enhances his abilities somehow - sometimes makes him numb to the destruction he causes. Sometimes he enjoys it.
In other words, it's similar to my connection with the Beast that still lurks within me. But he learned to control it. I wish I didn't have to associate with that part of me anymore, but the truth is that there might be instances where I might need the power to protect myself...and maybe others too.
Oh, but back to Alex. I think I feel a certain kinship with him. Not like my connection with the rest of my unit - they're like family. But I guess deep down? It's kind of nice to feel like I can relate to someone else.
12/7 - I'm starting to feel like he's the only person, besides Raven, that I can be honest with, without the fear of being judged. We still haven't actually met face to face, but we tell each other stuff that we probably can't speak with anyone else. I think I...trust him?
I'm worried about him though, since he apparently eats monsters. What if someone hates him for eating something out of the ordinary too? :(
12/19 - I ran into him for the first time, while I was trying to figure out the Octopus side of me. Surprisingly, he didn't seem scared by me, even when I thirsted for destruction within it. Also surprising was that even in that form, I didn't feel any desire to kill him. I guess I feel closer to him than I originally believed.
He walked me home too. He kind of seems unapproachable if you've only spoken to him once or twice, but I think he's just as confused about how this social thing works as I am.
12/23 - He actually spoke up on my behalf when some guy was being an ASSHOLE when I was just trying to find my roommate. I think that might be the first time someone's actually stood up for me. For sure I've become fond enough of him to consider him my favorite person in this city. Even considering all of my other friends that have disappeared, I think I feel the strongest connection with him (not counting my unitmate).
I just hope he doesn't disappear too. :(
1/3 - I feel bad that he kind of got gypped out on getting something when almost everyone else got something they desired. I guess he still had a dream about his sister...but I think that just upset him more than anything. Can't say I blame him - I'd be pretty upset if I had a dream about my family too. At least he wasn't directly involved with his family's death...that is if his sister actually died.
I tried to make him feel a little better, but I'm not sure if I actually did...I'm still pretty new the the whole consoling thing. Still...I offered to let him stay at my place, since all of the noise was bothering him. It's been pretty quiet since Raven left, after all.
2/1 - He wants to take down the corporations, and even if most others seem to question what he's doing, I'm going to help him. Not only do I also because I want to see both SERO and AGI taken down, but also because there's no way in hell I'm going to let him die.
Oh, we played some video games after discussing that stuff too. It was kind of fun...I hope we can do it again sometime.
2/15 - It's kind of weird. I totally didn't want to go out - because it's kind of boring sitting around bars with people you don't really know (not to mention my co-workers seemed to get bored with me pretty quickly anyway). At least that's what I think. But anyway, I ran into Alex there - it'd be a really strange event indeed (because I think he gets out even less than I do), until you realize he works there. I guess he really likes working the bar scene? Actually no, that was kind of the only options left to me too, for a while.
But we talked for a while - about the plan to steal the Core on Friday (here's hoping it works!). I got so excited over it that I...think I had to hold myself back from getting too excited over it, you know? Things could have been weird, to say the least and I really don't want things to be weird between us.
I'm still not quite sure how I would define our relationship - "kin" has admittedly always been a weird term, but "friend" seems too vague for how close we've become...but it's probably the nearest word for it. I'm just glad he considers me a friend too.
2/20 - We got ourselves into more trouble today...by helping blow up a SERO lab. But somehow a lot of other things got caught in the explosion too? That was weird, but I'm glad we were able to escape from it okay. We watched the destruction from a rooftop later. It was nice...really nice.
Although I always like spending time with him anyway.
I just need to figure out how to control my power better, so I can get down on my own without needing Alex to carry me again. I don't want to make extra work for him, you know?
2/26 - I told Alex about my past...the worst part of it. I kind of wonder if I'm burdening him with my trauma, but at the same time he deserved to know just how much of a Beast I really am. Not that he's ever judged me for it.
I guess it feels nice to have someone around that I feel I can be completely honest to. Even if it's only him.
3/2 - I was stupid, really stupid. But when it comes to those fucking cultists, I don't exactly think right. But...regardless, I kind of got myself in a bad situation - I might have even died if Alex didn't come help me. It was wonderful - to see the blood of those goddamned cultist bastards COVER the ground. I didn't even have to imagine it turning into ink -- I damned well wanted them all dead!
But I'm getting sidetracked here. The point is that I'm glad he's there for me, but I don't want to depend on him entirely. Even if it was a damned good time today.
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I haven't seen him since then. Hasn't called me, I haven't been able to call him, hasn't stopped by, haven't seen him around at Merlotte's...I know he has the tendency to disappear for long periods of time, but he wouldn't skip out on work, would he?
Maybe I shouldn't be so worried about him. I know he can take care of himself. But what if something bad happened to him? I relied on him so much...what if he felt that he couldn't rely on me? What if he's trapped somewhere and no one's bothering to help him? What if he's dead?!
Okay, so the last one might be jumping to conclusions, but after the last time we met...I can't help but be worried about it.
He's probably just hiding out again, right? He'll probably reappear out of nowhere like he usually does...and everything will be fine again...but it's not good to give myself false hope either.
Perhaps he's returned home. He can save his sister and make sure his town doesn't get blown up! So then, he won't have to worry about it. Maybe he'll have a peace of mind. I've long wanted it for myself, so I should be happy for him.
Should be.
...
Who am I kidding? How can I be truly happy when I know that he's not even going to remember who I am? I did everything with him! I trusted him more than I trusted anyone else! He's the only one I felt like I could relate to! Out of everyone that could have disappeared, why did it have to be him?!
Why do I bother getting close to people if they're just going to disappear later?!
What the fuck am I supposed to do?!
...okay. I had to stop writing for a while there. Let myself cool off. Maybe I'm just being over-dramatic. I have a tendency to do that. I'll look for him. The Lux doesn't reopen until the 31st, so it's not like I have anything better to do at night for a while. Maybe I can learn to get down from rooftops on my own, huh? I shouldn't be so dependent on anyone anyways.
But if I don't find him by then...I guess he's really gone. Maybe he'll come back, like Liquid did. If that's the case, I can't just sit around moping about it. I have to destroy both SERO and AGI by the time he gets back, so he won't have to worry about anything when he returns. Hopefully by then he'll have all of his issues resolved, so maybe he can finally relax.
Maybe then he won't want to leave.
RAGING BEAUTY ==> ragingbeauty
One of my unitmates from my world. I was so happy when she was brought into town, because she too could try to experience a life without nearly as much conflict!
But it wasn't meant to be. I'm doing everything I can to try to bring her -- and the rest of my unitmates -- back into town.
Although more and more, it's looking increasingly impossible. It's demoralizing.
CLAIRE BENNET ==> DELETED JOURNAL
She was my first real friend in town. Because of her, I really broke out of my shell and began to understand world outside of the battlefield, even if I still have a lot to learn. We really did a lot of things together and I'll miss her. I'm trying to be as helpful as she was to people, but I don't think I can make the same kind of impact on people that she had on me.
I'm not sure if she just disappeared, or if the Scarecrow killed her, but it distresses me that I wasn't able to protect her.
BROOKE ==> tapdancinskelly
He was the first person I spoke to in town. Although I was frightened by his appearance, at first, he quickly became one of my best friends in town. It's a shame that I didn't get to visit him more often.
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5/10 - I never thought I'd see him again, but today he showed up in the city again...and he remembered me! I gave him some advice, so that hopefully another woman will show him her underwear. But also, I think I've recruited him to my cause of destroying both companies.
Maybe then, the person I want to see again the most will return too.
7/18 - I don't know how the hell it happened (some card game???), but apparently he's human again! I'm happy for him, I guess, but I wonder if it's permanent?
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8/5 - An article on the newsfeed today says that an "animated skeleton" broke in past the gates of a SERO facility. Considering the fact that I can't seem to get into contact, that must mean that they got him too.
God damn it. How many more are they going to fuck with?! But I can sit here and complain or I can do something about it. I thought it was smart to bide my time, but if other people, people I care about, are getting hurt in my idleness, then I need to do something.
BIG BOSS ==> heavendivided
He really reached out to me, when I first arrived. He saved me from having to endure the apartments alone and gave me a place to stay in his Outer Heaven. He listened to my story and didn't shun me for it -- instead he told me that I didn't have to be the Octopus any longer and that I could become something beyond it.
Even if I've gotten my most trusted weapon, since his disappearance, I still keep the M16 he gave me as a token to remember him by. Even if I didn't know him for very long, he made an impact like few others have before. Never has anyone else gained my trust so easily.
APOLLO JUSTICE ==> judicatory
He seems kind of nervous a lot? But I'm not really one to talk about being nervous. He's really nice too though! I know I've been saying that a lot about everyone so far, but I really don't think he could be mean if he tried.
He said he might come to see me at work sometime! I hope he does! I just hope the guys at work aren't jerks to him. :(
12/10 - Well. That was a weird day. He actually came to see me but - I can't even explain it! It's like I'd be really sad if I parted from him and I just always wanted to be by him. I think he wanted the same too. But it only lasted a couple of hours.
I do like Apollo, but I don't think I could ever be with him - like that. He takes pride in working for the law, while I can never really trust it.
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He's gone now. It saddens me that I never really got to do anything for him, because of all the nice things he did for me...I'll hold onto his possessions and hope he comes back into the town someday.
SCARECROW ==> mindf_cks
I've never come across him myself, but he needs to be hunted down. He scared Claire, and it wouldn't be right for me to let someone like that run around. Maybe it's "wrong" for me to kill...but it should be okay if it's for a good cause, right?
Joker called Dr. Crane "Crow" on the network. Does this mean that he's him? But then again, it's Joker. I need to investigate this further, before I begin my chase.
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Sadly, the chase never got off the ground. Did someone else kill him already?