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i really want to go back to teaching full time. full time as in, making the same amount of money as a 9-5 every weekday, but only working around 20 hours a week (if that).
my dad was a tad drunk last night and he, my mom, and i had some quality time on the front porch. he was asking me about the house and if this is absolutely what i want to do and basically, what do i want to do with my life. for once, it didn't come across as demeaning. i think he genuinely cared. maybe it was the alcohol, but i'll take whatever i can get. but it was almost like he was asking me, "what do you want to be when you grow up?" my answer for the last few years has been that i want to be a songwriter. i know it's something so completely illogical and there's no track in college for it. but i really feel like that's what i'm supposed to do. or at least be in the studio- SOMEthing other than have a "normal" job. i'm not cut out for corporate america bullshit. i'm just not.
so even after last night's thought-provoking moments, i'm still planning on closing on the house july 13th.
i have a headache, i'm vigorously biting my nails, and i have a lot on my mind.
my dad was a tad drunk last night and he, my mom, and i had some quality time on the front porch. he was asking me about the house and if this is absolutely what i want to do and basically, what do i want to do with my life. for once, it didn't come across as demeaning. i think he genuinely cared. maybe it was the alcohol, but i'll take whatever i can get. but it was almost like he was asking me, "what do you want to be when you grow up?" my answer for the last few years has been that i want to be a songwriter. i know it's something so completely illogical and there's no track in college for it. but i really feel like that's what i'm supposed to do. or at least be in the studio- SOMEthing other than have a "normal" job. i'm not cut out for corporate america bullshit. i'm just not.
so even after last night's thought-provoking moments, i'm still planning on closing on the house july 13th.
i have a headache, i'm vigorously biting my nails, and i have a lot on my mind.