i want

[decemberinlex]

i want ...

to not be fat.
to eat whatever i want, and how much of whatever i want...
and still not be fat.
i want to make a difference in the lives of many people.
i want to be a mother someday.
i want water to be as addictive as soda.
...to be very close, very inseparable friends with someone.
...everyone to be intrigued by me...
...and intimidated by me...
...i want to be everyone's favorite person.
...i want something very very bad at debilitating to happen to 'her'.
...for anyone who's ever been arrogant and ignorant to get what's coming to them.
...for my dog to not be sad.
and my cat to be less of an ass.

i want...

a big meal from jack in the box right now.
to be an actress.
a happy family.
less anxiety.
to start a revolution.
to make a movie.
to go back in time, to the happiest moments of my life, when i'm sad.
to paint a work of art.
to alter the weather.
to be addictive.
to grow up.