Axis 3
My body knows it's January. I have been so busy with work and the kids that I haven't had the time to actually feel this change, well not until today. This sensation creeps up on a person. It's as if I have been lathered (from waist on down) with Ben Gay. My legs are burning up, tingling, however the exception is that no relief follows. Excruciating pain, a consistent aching accompanies this heat. I seemed to have temporarily pushed aside the fact that this pattern pops up every January. Once in a blue moon it will rear it's head a lil later in February. I think this is just it's way of reminding me that it is unpredictable, independent, manifesting whenever or wherever it wants. Who knows it may start doing a turn around and move into April since I am now aware of the game. Ooh the drama ;) As long as I can somehow weave my way around that drawn out episode (like my journal entry)that brings with it high fevers (that refuse to be tamed by Tylenol, Advil or any other antipyretic), nausea, vomiting, weight loss and limited mobility, then it will be all good. I guess this is what I get for being 11mos overdue for a Rheum doc visit. I am supposed to have blood work every 3 mos, but who has the time? Priorities... Not necessarily in this order of course : 1) Being good this New Year 2) Being positive 3) Spending more time with the kids 4) Adopting Gerard's vast vocabulary 5) Putting some "life" into my life. So far I am 1 for 5 (that one being # 3). Well, actually I did a lil of # 2. I spoke with husband on the phone and was very civil. I called for a truce. I suggested we put all things aside and focus on how we will make it better for the kids. Our personal lives will be no concern of the other as long as the kids are taken care of properly and time divided reasonably so neither parent feels overwhelmed. We shall see what comes of this ingenious idea.