Random Ramble
So thank God for my wonderful best friend who allowed me to borrow her laptop this week so I could get some writing done. Bless her soul.
I finished writing my 30 Kisses prompt and now I need to give myself a little break before proofing. So I'm just sitting here thinking about the next 100 Steps chapter and feeling bad that I left it hanging at Zack kissing Cloud and the Physical Therapy story, which I really want to write, when I realized...
If I start writing that Physical Therapy story any time soon, I'll have two Highschool AUs going for two different fandoms at the same time. Why the hell do I have such an obsession with Highschool AUs? I should go into writing movie scripts for teen movies or write teen lit or something. I also worry because I know there are a lot of people who hate reading Highschool AUs, so, like, what if no one likes it, or wants to read it? But I write for myself, right?
Right...
But still, it is nice to share with people and have them like it too.
I'm going to so get flamed again. It's been so long since I've really been flamed.
I wonder if I'll go psycho bitch on their asses and put them to shame again...
The KH people will probably be cool, though. It's the Harry Potter fans I'm worried about, because they tend to flame a lot. And in monosyllabic ways that make you wonder how they didn't fail first grade. With things like "Draco is not gay!!! I hat U!!! You say ur 22 but act like ur 7!!!!!! Die!!!"
No, really, totally got a flame like that once. It was slightly more retarded, but I tried.
Anyway...
Yeah. Kind of worried about it and wondering if I should stop writing so many Highschool AUs. Am feeling kind of like a one trick pony. But then I remind myself that I'm writing 100 Steps to Somewhere and wrote Prophecy of Absconditus and feel a little better.
I really like A Few Words, though, so it shouldn't matter, right? It has a plot, a moral, a message, and is turning out so hysterically funny, too. Changing it from RonxHarry to RonxDraco has just been a gift, too, because it opened up a thousand more doors for plot and humor. But I just know the Harry Potter people (especially at fanfiction.net) are going to shit a tree just because I'm setting it in America. What am I supposed to do about that, though? I don't understand British schooling, and it's not that I don't really want to, but I want to write about things I do understand. I just happened to get an American school setting plot and the HP characters were perfect for it.
I don't want to get a Britpicker, either. I will never get one. Call me stubborn, but every one I've ever dealt with has been mean and nasty just because I'm a stupid American that doesn't get it. I have enough complexes. I don't need to have any about where I was born, you know? Plus having to get a Britpicker pisses me off because I can't tell you the number of times I've read about American characters with Brit slang all over the place. I never cared. It's not like, 'Oh, well, it's just fanfiction.' I take my writing very seriously no matter what it is I'm doing. I just happen to be an American. If I'm writing canon I try to do my best to cater to the British setting. This just happens to be an American setting. The American setting is appropriate.
Dear God, I just know some asshole with a stick up their butt is going to birth a cow over this.
Can you tell I'm waiting as long as possible to post it? I might not even post it. I don't know. Maybe I will and just avoid reading reviews so I don't have to have one of those days where I fall down the stairs (or get my arm caught in a kitchen appliance) and check my email to see some retard who can't spell bitching me out over my setting. I just don't feel like dealing with that drama. Constructive critisism, yes. Sure. Go for it. Tell me if something isn't working. I want to know if my characterization is weak or there are plot holes all over the place. I do not want some pissed off bitch with a chip on his/her shoulder cussing me out because it's a Highschool AU set in America.
And why the hell can't people read notes, warnings, and disclaimers. It I say it's m/m, it's to let you know that if that sort of thing offends you, turn your eyes away. I put my pairings in the header all the time so that if someone doesn't like the pairing, they don't have to read it. For some reason, however, I just keep getting messages from people who say things like, "I liked this story, but I don't like the pairing." Why the hell did you even read it if you don't like the pairing???!!! I don't read AxelxRiku if it's labeled that way because I don't like the pairing. I wouldn't read a SnapexHarry and then send the author a message saying the story would have been better with a different pairing 'cause SnapexHarry isn't believable. It just doesn't make any effing sense to me.
I once got a nasty email from a mother because I swear a lot in my stories and she doesn't want her 13 year old daughter reading those kind of words. Hello!!!??? The story was rated 'R.' I put a warning in capital letters in all chapters that the story contained mature themes. And how is it my fault that her kid is reading my stories? I'm twenty-two (and I was eighteen at the time). I think whether or not I put curse words in my stories is my decision. My target audience is not children. I'm actually shocked when I find out someone who reads my stuff is under fifteen because that's younger than my intended audience.
So, yeah...I don't know, but I do know all the labels and warnings in the world aren't going to deter the stupid comments I don't feel like dealing with and will just muck up my review page. I have six chapters and absolutely nothing to do with them.
On another note, I don't really feel like dealing with, "I like it. Update soon, plz!!! ^_^" either. I like to have a rapport with my readers. That's why I started my CloudxRiku community--I want to connect with people interested in what I'm interested in. So what do you say to a review like that? I always have to bullshit something because I don't want to reply to everyone but those people. I feel it's rude. I'd rather not get the review. I try to point out things I liked and disliked when I comment on someone's story if I comment at all. If I have nothing to say, I don't say anything, you know? I just want to go, "Uh...thanks. That was...not helpful at all. I'll update when I get the time. Have a nice life."
Maybe I'm ungrateful. I don't know. I'm just...I'm not one of those "I won't update until I get fifteen reviews!!!" kind of person. I'd rather have three constructive replies (constructive could be telling me what was good and/or what wasn't as good as it could have been) than thirty "OMG!!! Update cuz I'm gonna die!!!" I honestly want to know what people think. I want to know what they like. I want to know if something just isn't working at all. I'd get a beta to have a really good rapport with, but every time I get a beta they take a week to get back to me and I just can't deal with that. I know people have busy lives. I have a busy life. Way too busy to ever beta for someone unless they were someone who's writing I really loved. I just don't think people should offer unless they have the time to really work on something.
I guess this is why I'm going to be taking about a gazillion writing courses when I get back into school.
I don't even know what I'm complaining about anymore.
Oh, yeah...A Few Words and how I don't know what to do with it.
I don't know. I guess I'll post it and just hope that (as usual) the few good, full-bodied opinions that come along make up for all the crap.
I don't have this problem with CloudxRiku too much. Perhaps that's why I love that community so much. Probably because we love to talk about Kingdom Hearts. Probably because there aren't too many fans so we all pretty much know everyone by SN.
Or maybe that's just me. Then again, I am the person who decided that since there was no canon CloudxRiku that had more than one chapter, I was going to start the ship myself out of nothing. Now I can't even keep up with the activity. With RonxDraco...
At least RonxDraco is better than the HarryxDraco people. They really liked to tear into me over nothing. Like that "Draco isn't gay! May you burn in hell for writing about gay people! God is sending you to hell!!" review? Yeah. That was so for a HarryxDraco story. Then again, I have this odd habit of getting reviews from people who prefer other ships, this is their first story of whatever coupling their reading (or first multi-chapter story) and while the pairing is kind of weird, they like the story.
So that's good, right?
God, I'm so blathering. I need to go edit.
By the way, on another note...
I was looking at screencaps for Crisis Core, and I know he's supposed to be the bad guy, but I am so effing hot for Genesis it's unbelievable. He's like...I know he was supposed modelled after Gackt, who is also hot, but he's also a Square Enix sexy man and...just yes.
I love Genesis. All about Genesis. Hell yeah Genesis.
I finished writing my 30 Kisses prompt and now I need to give myself a little break before proofing. So I'm just sitting here thinking about the next 100 Steps chapter and feeling bad that I left it hanging at Zack kissing Cloud and the Physical Therapy story, which I really want to write, when I realized...
If I start writing that Physical Therapy story any time soon, I'll have two Highschool AUs going for two different fandoms at the same time. Why the hell do I have such an obsession with Highschool AUs? I should go into writing movie scripts for teen movies or write teen lit or something. I also worry because I know there are a lot of people who hate reading Highschool AUs, so, like, what if no one likes it, or wants to read it? But I write for myself, right?
Right...
But still, it is nice to share with people and have them like it too.
I'm going to so get flamed again. It's been so long since I've really been flamed.
I wonder if I'll go psycho bitch on their asses and put them to shame again...
The KH people will probably be cool, though. It's the Harry Potter fans I'm worried about, because they tend to flame a lot. And in monosyllabic ways that make you wonder how they didn't fail first grade. With things like "Draco is not gay!!! I hat U!!! You say ur 22 but act like ur 7!!!!!! Die!!!"
No, really, totally got a flame like that once. It was slightly more retarded, but I tried.
Anyway...
Yeah. Kind of worried about it and wondering if I should stop writing so many Highschool AUs. Am feeling kind of like a one trick pony. But then I remind myself that I'm writing 100 Steps to Somewhere and wrote Prophecy of Absconditus and feel a little better.
I really like A Few Words, though, so it shouldn't matter, right? It has a plot, a moral, a message, and is turning out so hysterically funny, too. Changing it from RonxHarry to RonxDraco has just been a gift, too, because it opened up a thousand more doors for plot and humor. But I just know the Harry Potter people (especially at fanfiction.net) are going to shit a tree just because I'm setting it in America. What am I supposed to do about that, though? I don't understand British schooling, and it's not that I don't really want to, but I want to write about things I do understand. I just happened to get an American school setting plot and the HP characters were perfect for it.
I don't want to get a Britpicker, either. I will never get one. Call me stubborn, but every one I've ever dealt with has been mean and nasty just because I'm a stupid American that doesn't get it. I have enough complexes. I don't need to have any about where I was born, you know? Plus having to get a Britpicker pisses me off because I can't tell you the number of times I've read about American characters with Brit slang all over the place. I never cared. It's not like, 'Oh, well, it's just fanfiction.' I take my writing very seriously no matter what it is I'm doing. I just happen to be an American. If I'm writing canon I try to do my best to cater to the British setting. This just happens to be an American setting. The American setting is appropriate.
Dear God, I just know some asshole with a stick up their butt is going to birth a cow over this.
Can you tell I'm waiting as long as possible to post it? I might not even post it. I don't know. Maybe I will and just avoid reading reviews so I don't have to have one of those days where I fall down the stairs (or get my arm caught in a kitchen appliance) and check my email to see some retard who can't spell bitching me out over my setting. I just don't feel like dealing with that drama. Constructive critisism, yes. Sure. Go for it. Tell me if something isn't working. I want to know if my characterization is weak or there are plot holes all over the place. I do not want some pissed off bitch with a chip on his/her shoulder cussing me out because it's a Highschool AU set in America.
And why the hell can't people read notes, warnings, and disclaimers. It I say it's m/m, it's to let you know that if that sort of thing offends you, turn your eyes away. I put my pairings in the header all the time so that if someone doesn't like the pairing, they don't have to read it. For some reason, however, I just keep getting messages from people who say things like, "I liked this story, but I don't like the pairing." Why the hell did you even read it if you don't like the pairing???!!! I don't read AxelxRiku if it's labeled that way because I don't like the pairing. I wouldn't read a SnapexHarry and then send the author a message saying the story would have been better with a different pairing 'cause SnapexHarry isn't believable. It just doesn't make any effing sense to me.
I once got a nasty email from a mother because I swear a lot in my stories and she doesn't want her 13 year old daughter reading those kind of words. Hello!!!??? The story was rated 'R.' I put a warning in capital letters in all chapters that the story contained mature themes. And how is it my fault that her kid is reading my stories? I'm twenty-two (and I was eighteen at the time). I think whether or not I put curse words in my stories is my decision. My target audience is not children. I'm actually shocked when I find out someone who reads my stuff is under fifteen because that's younger than my intended audience.
So, yeah...I don't know, but I do know all the labels and warnings in the world aren't going to deter the stupid comments I don't feel like dealing with and will just muck up my review page. I have six chapters and absolutely nothing to do with them.
On another note, I don't really feel like dealing with, "I like it. Update soon, plz!!! ^_^" either. I like to have a rapport with my readers. That's why I started my CloudxRiku community--I want to connect with people interested in what I'm interested in. So what do you say to a review like that? I always have to bullshit something because I don't want to reply to everyone but those people. I feel it's rude. I'd rather not get the review. I try to point out things I liked and disliked when I comment on someone's story if I comment at all. If I have nothing to say, I don't say anything, you know? I just want to go, "Uh...thanks. That was...not helpful at all. I'll update when I get the time. Have a nice life."
Maybe I'm ungrateful. I don't know. I'm just...I'm not one of those "I won't update until I get fifteen reviews!!!" kind of person. I'd rather have three constructive replies (constructive could be telling me what was good and/or what wasn't as good as it could have been) than thirty "OMG!!! Update cuz I'm gonna die!!!" I honestly want to know what people think. I want to know what they like. I want to know if something just isn't working at all. I'd get a beta to have a really good rapport with, but every time I get a beta they take a week to get back to me and I just can't deal with that. I know people have busy lives. I have a busy life. Way too busy to ever beta for someone unless they were someone who's writing I really loved. I just don't think people should offer unless they have the time to really work on something.
I guess this is why I'm going to be taking about a gazillion writing courses when I get back into school.
I don't even know what I'm complaining about anymore.
Oh, yeah...A Few Words and how I don't know what to do with it.
I don't know. I guess I'll post it and just hope that (as usual) the few good, full-bodied opinions that come along make up for all the crap.
I don't have this problem with CloudxRiku too much. Perhaps that's why I love that community so much. Probably because we love to talk about Kingdom Hearts. Probably because there aren't too many fans so we all pretty much know everyone by SN.
Or maybe that's just me. Then again, I am the person who decided that since there was no canon CloudxRiku that had more than one chapter, I was going to start the ship myself out of nothing. Now I can't even keep up with the activity. With RonxDraco...
At least RonxDraco is better than the HarryxDraco people. They really liked to tear into me over nothing. Like that "Draco isn't gay! May you burn in hell for writing about gay people! God is sending you to hell!!" review? Yeah. That was so for a HarryxDraco story. Then again, I have this odd habit of getting reviews from people who prefer other ships, this is their first story of whatever coupling their reading (or first multi-chapter story) and while the pairing is kind of weird, they like the story.
So that's good, right?
God, I'm so blathering. I need to go edit.
By the way, on another note...
I was looking at screencaps for Crisis Core, and I know he's supposed to be the bad guy, but I am so effing hot for Genesis it's unbelievable. He's like...I know he was supposed modelled after Gackt, who is also hot, but he's also a Square Enix sexy man and...just yes.
I love Genesis. All about Genesis. Hell yeah Genesis.