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[deceive_thee]

When I got home from practice I stood in my room for about twenty minutes with my sweatshirt pressed up against my face. I like that smell, but it's more about the suffocation. Keeps me quiet anyways. Then I was going to go eat with my dad (papa fritz) and talk to him about basketball, but my mom invited herself along, so we just got take-out.

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[happiestbuddha]

"I like that smell, but it's more about the suffocation"

that scares me...

im not really sure whats going on in your life but it sounds like something's up. if it's any consolation, my entire world is falling out from under me.. piece by piece

[deceive_thee]

i wouldn't ever really suffocate myself. it's more figurative, like i'm holding in everything. and i know my problems are nothing compared to yours. if you never need a place to stay, don't hesitate to call or come over. or someone to talk to. people say i'm good at listening. actually, only i say that.

[happiestbuddha]

even though i sometimes tend to feel really sorry for myself, i dont like to think my problems are any worse than anyone else's (and if i do think so, i keep it to myself).. so i am sure whatever is going on in your life is pretty substantial, at least to you, and thats what matters.

i am really good at listening too, so if you need a friend i am here.
and thanks for the offer to stay over, i now have like 15 offers.. thats like a different friend every night for two weeks!

[happiestbuddha]

ps - i didnt mean to belittle (is that a word?) your offer by saying that "everyone" has been offering. it means a lot to me that even though we never see each other, that you'd still be there for me. thank you

[deceive_thee]

not at all. i'm glad i was unoriginal in my offer because that means you have lots of people who care. and yeah i'm there for you. sometimes it's easier to talk to someone who has no idea what's going on than to someone you see everyday.

as for my problems i find helping others usually solves them.