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fuck
why do i cry? i seriously wish i knew what the fuck is wrong with me.
i can't make my verbs agree either. fuck it all. i don't care.
i miss my nate, and i'm a bit worried about him to tell the truth. i'm also worried about seth, i hope he doesn't have to move back to alaska....that would suck so hardcore, and he does not deserve any of the recent shit thats been happening to him. poor guy, i wish i could drive over there to give him a hug. and go and see nate and give my honey a hug and a kiss.
but whatever, what the fuck is the point of dwelling on shit when its not going to happen?
fuck...i hope this isn't just another michael relationship...i don't know what the fucki would do if it ended up like that,
why the hell do i keep relapsing into such negative moods and low-self esteem?
maybe everyone is just fucking with me.
goddamnit i hate being scarred like this....its so much worse than any physical scars.
but seriously..how many people know what its like to be absolutely used by everyone just to wake up and find noone there? everyone you loved..and thought loved you is gone and then you wonder why.
why did this happen? what did i do? why am I the fucked up one?
nothing makes sense.
i want to go cut myself.......
i know i shouldn't, but right now that seems like the only good thing to do.
not like anyone's here to stop me....again.
why do i cry? i seriously wish i knew what the fuck is wrong with me.
i can't make my verbs agree either. fuck it all. i don't care.
i miss my nate, and i'm a bit worried about him to tell the truth. i'm also worried about seth, i hope he doesn't have to move back to alaska....that would suck so hardcore, and he does not deserve any of the recent shit thats been happening to him. poor guy, i wish i could drive over there to give him a hug. and go and see nate and give my honey a hug and a kiss.
but whatever, what the fuck is the point of dwelling on shit when its not going to happen?
fuck...i hope this isn't just another michael relationship...i don't know what the fucki would do if it ended up like that,
why the hell do i keep relapsing into such negative moods and low-self esteem?
maybe everyone is just fucking with me.
goddamnit i hate being scarred like this....its so much worse than any physical scars.
but seriously..how many people know what its like to be absolutely used by everyone just to wake up and find noone there? everyone you loved..and thought loved you is gone and then you wonder why.
why did this happen? what did i do? why am I the fucked up one?
nothing makes sense.
i want to go cut myself.......
i know i shouldn't, but right now that seems like the only good thing to do.
not like anyone's here to stop me....again.