angry angry angry
everything is pissing me off in my house. its like...graaaaaaaaaaar!! i jus wanna fucking scream out loud and break shit. but if i do that, ill get in trouble. so much anger keeps fucknig building inside of me that i jus start fucking crying. i hate that shit! i know i get angry easily, and its makes shit worst. im so fucking pissed at my mom i wish i could just fucking bitch slap some sense into her. and then my brother. grrrr. hes such a fucking ASSHOLE. i fucking hate it in my house! hate it hate it hate it hate it....HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT. lets show a few things they fucking do:
yesterday. i was washing clothing n it was a lil before 11 pm. i wasnt goin to bed soon cuz i needed to hang up the clothing to dry. so i hopped online to pass the time by cuz there was nothing else for me to do. joey comes outta his room n starts fucking saying shit to me. shit like oh i cant believe ure actually online passed 10pm on a school nite. i told u u cant be on this late cuz u need to wake up in the morning. i told him that i was washing clothes so i wouldnt be going to bed, n he gets a fucknig attitude starting with the same shit. so i told him fine, ill get off, ok? n he gets upset telling me not to give a fucking attitude. WHY DONT U BACK THE FUCK UP WITH YOUR FUCKING ATTITUDE U FUCKIN PIECE OF SHIT!! grrrrr!! i still wanna fucking cut ur arm off for what you did to me!! IF U EVER...I MEAN EVER PUT ANOTHER FUCKING HAND ON ME, I WILL HAVE UR FUCKING ASS ARRESTED FOR ASAULT!! AND I WILL PRESS CHARGES AGAINST YOUR ASS. if u sit there in front of steven and claim that youll kill your won family-your own blood-for our stupid mother, then i can fucking put your ass in jail with no guilt. if u can kill me so easily, i can torture u 10000x worst. dont ever touch me. no one, not even our mother, will lay a hand on me. NO ONE.
my mom now...she claims she fucking told me that last friday i was spose to go for my xray appointment, but she never told me. shes sitting down claiming she did, but she never did. the bitch never told me!! NEVER!! she just keeps on being her little bitchy hipocrytical self. if i did have an appointment, then i woulda been notified before hand to remind me that i did. another thing is that she said i could sleep in friday since i like, never get good sleep. fucking bullshit. grrr
another thing is how she forces me to lie. everytime sum1 calls for her, i always gotta sit around and lie to them on how shes not there. but i thought christians arent spose to lie. i thought christians arent spose to make their children lie, bcuz lieing is a sin. right? and to think youre a minister?? good way to get to heaven mom, looks like ill be seeing your stupid as in hell.
im not even gonna continue with shit. im just find ways to get them back at the shit they do. fist off with that, my grades. their little shining polaris of the family will be dimmed with my anger for them. once again, i know ill be the digrace of the family. but you know what? FUCK YOU. next, im gonna take my money, and im gonna go get my lip pierced. thats right. im getting it done. im not allowed to..BUT IM GONNA DO IT BECAUSE U SAY NO. if you claim im gonna be such a screw up, WHY DONT I FUCKING LIVE UP TO IT???
im start wearing my skull shit. u dont like it? too bad bitch. you cant stop me. its my life, let me fuck it up. i hate you. i cant wait till the day that i dont hafta see you anymore. ill show you show you how much of a digrace i am, ill prove to you correct, cuz youre the mom. and the mom is always correct.
yesterday. i was washing clothing n it was a lil before 11 pm. i wasnt goin to bed soon cuz i needed to hang up the clothing to dry. so i hopped online to pass the time by cuz there was nothing else for me to do. joey comes outta his room n starts fucking saying shit to me. shit like oh i cant believe ure actually online passed 10pm on a school nite. i told u u cant be on this late cuz u need to wake up in the morning. i told him that i was washing clothes so i wouldnt be going to bed, n he gets a fucknig attitude starting with the same shit. so i told him fine, ill get off, ok? n he gets upset telling me not to give a fucking attitude. WHY DONT U BACK THE FUCK UP WITH YOUR FUCKING ATTITUDE U FUCKIN PIECE OF SHIT!! grrrrr!! i still wanna fucking cut ur arm off for what you did to me!! IF U EVER...I MEAN EVER PUT ANOTHER FUCKING HAND ON ME, I WILL HAVE UR FUCKING ASS ARRESTED FOR ASAULT!! AND I WILL PRESS CHARGES AGAINST YOUR ASS. if u sit there in front of steven and claim that youll kill your won family-your own blood-for our stupid mother, then i can fucking put your ass in jail with no guilt. if u can kill me so easily, i can torture u 10000x worst. dont ever touch me. no one, not even our mother, will lay a hand on me. NO ONE.
my mom now...she claims she fucking told me that last friday i was spose to go for my xray appointment, but she never told me. shes sitting down claiming she did, but she never did. the bitch never told me!! NEVER!! she just keeps on being her little bitchy hipocrytical self. if i did have an appointment, then i woulda been notified before hand to remind me that i did. another thing is that she said i could sleep in friday since i like, never get good sleep. fucking bullshit. grrr
another thing is how she forces me to lie. everytime sum1 calls for her, i always gotta sit around and lie to them on how shes not there. but i thought christians arent spose to lie. i thought christians arent spose to make their children lie, bcuz lieing is a sin. right? and to think youre a minister?? good way to get to heaven mom, looks like ill be seeing your stupid as in hell.
im not even gonna continue with shit. im just find ways to get them back at the shit they do. fist off with that, my grades. their little shining polaris of the family will be dimmed with my anger for them. once again, i know ill be the digrace of the family. but you know what? FUCK YOU. next, im gonna take my money, and im gonna go get my lip pierced. thats right. im getting it done. im not allowed to..BUT IM GONNA DO IT BECAUSE U SAY NO. if you claim im gonna be such a screw up, WHY DONT I FUCKING LIVE UP TO IT???
im start wearing my skull shit. u dont like it? too bad bitch. you cant stop me. its my life, let me fuck it up. i hate you. i cant wait till the day that i dont hafta see you anymore. ill show you show you how much of a digrace i am, ill prove to you correct, cuz youre the mom. and the mom is always correct.