true friends
in the past couple days I've had time to find out who is truly my friend... and who is just there to suck life from me at any waking moment when they need me for something....
people who I barely know have been there more for me in the past two days, the two most awkward & difficult days I could have asked for in life, than the friends that I thought would save me from anything.
I want to thank those ones that need to be named...
Maggie - The first one to call me and ask me if I was alright, the first one to beg me to come out to Paul's so she could cheer me up. The first one to make me laugh after the whole fiasco started. I fucking love her so much it's ridiculous. (Paul & Dave helped too, just not that much..)
Greg - He's there for me whenever I need to be cuddled tight and told how pretty I am, even with "bad goth mascara" running down my face. He's amazing, always always always willing to cheer me up.
Crystal - The first one to offer up her support the way she could, via the only way she found out, live journal. I love you girl. You're amazing and you're always there when I need you. You and Joel. Thanks.
Christal - I barely know this girl but she's fucking amazing. I love ya :)
As for the rest of my dickhead friends who didn't even give half a rats ass to help, to see if I was okay, to EVEN CONTACT ME once in awhile...don't ask me for shit anymore.
I've been realizing lately that I'm falling out of the group that used to be the best group of friends I thought I had... I'm realizing now it's an entirely different group that actually cares.
Sooo needless to say.. I've had another bad day.
I went out to Dinner with dad & Tep to reconcile things. I played nice, but it was killing me inside... I'm just not taking to this well at all.
I hope I work on labor day. dad's having the family gathering at his house. fuck that. cathy will be there. FUCK that.
I'm not okay.
people who I barely know have been there more for me in the past two days, the two most awkward & difficult days I could have asked for in life, than the friends that I thought would save me from anything.
I want to thank those ones that need to be named...
Maggie - The first one to call me and ask me if I was alright, the first one to beg me to come out to Paul's so she could cheer me up. The first one to make me laugh after the whole fiasco started. I fucking love her so much it's ridiculous. (Paul & Dave helped too, just not that much..)
Greg - He's there for me whenever I need to be cuddled tight and told how pretty I am, even with "bad goth mascara" running down my face. He's amazing, always always always willing to cheer me up.
Crystal - The first one to offer up her support the way she could, via the only way she found out, live journal. I love you girl. You're amazing and you're always there when I need you. You and Joel. Thanks.
Christal - I barely know this girl but she's fucking amazing. I love ya :)
As for the rest of my dickhead friends who didn't even give half a rats ass to help, to see if I was okay, to EVEN CONTACT ME once in awhile...don't ask me for shit anymore.
I've been realizing lately that I'm falling out of the group that used to be the best group of friends I thought I had... I'm realizing now it's an entirely different group that actually cares.
Sooo needless to say.. I've had another bad day.
I went out to Dinner with dad & Tep to reconcile things. I played nice, but it was killing me inside... I'm just not taking to this well at all.
I hope I work on labor day. dad's having the family gathering at his house. fuck that. cathy will be there. FUCK that.
I'm not okay.