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[decadntmelnchly]

i hate phone calls
they just lead to dissapointment
someone isnt coming home
someone else made other plans
another person needs an unreasonable favor
everyone else just calls to say they cant fathom visiting you
in a three dimensional manner
blah
the smell of cigarettes intermingles with
the disdainful scent he always leaves behind
im always tired
and misery is my permanent companion
i wish i knew gary oldman
i would call him up
and be like
'hey gar, lets go get some chai and discuss how hilarious tim roth is..'
i need a haircut
my bangs are one inch away from being just another layer
boo
my boyfriend naps a lot
who cares
i have no jeans that fit
this is not an exaggeration
this is what happens when you eat
too little
too much
at all
yuck
i want to die
but i think i will put it off
after all
i still need to fuck up my life a bit more
lets count how many more times i will break down
break up
and break myself
before the week is over
it isnt fair that i should be so ugly
why cant i be the beautiful girl who doesnt see
it
i want to be
someone is home
for once
maybe they will buy me a cheeseburger
and a new bed
and new sheets
and a curtain
to sheild the blinding sun
that pierces through my window blinds at 6 in the morning
or some new pants
perhaps they will fit
perhaps
i wish i had long legs
and a breathtaking face
and envy inducing body
instead i have the result
of yearning for too many cheesrburgers
quick, say something witty