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LAST NIGHT I HAd this double dream. so i'm in my dream, dreaming that my dad has sent me a book from the dead, explaining how your life affects the afterlife, and i am reading it seeing how much i'll be suffering, the whole time hoping it's not true because i hope so much the afterlife does not exist. so i wake up in my dream, and remember that my dad wrote in the book that for proof i can summon him at anytime. so i say something like dad come here, and he comes in the room (wearing his worn black jeans and maroon three button down shirt tucked in under his massive beer belly). and i hug him and tell him i miss him so much and things like that, and i ask him if the book is all true about a hundred times over and then i get really mad that i strayed off the path and fucked everything up for myself thinking the entire time i was being smart. and yes it was pretty awful.
and now i'm awake and my brother is home for a few days. he brought his grand rapids girlfriend. her name is lucy ann, or something really northern michigan-like. i havent seen her yet, i hope she's not so stupid it's ridiculous, like the last two.
anyways, id like to be stripped of everything i have. im going to go take a shower. no, im not. im not sure what to do, really. hm.
and now i'm awake and my brother is home for a few days. he brought his grand rapids girlfriend. her name is lucy ann, or something really northern michigan-like. i havent seen her yet, i hope she's not so stupid it's ridiculous, like the last two.
anyways, id like to be stripped of everything i have. im going to go take a shower. no, im not. im not sure what to do, really. hm.