So far so good
I pondered my existence, and weighed the pros and cons of my life and what good would come out of it if I happen to "die." Good arguments on both sides, but in the end, I decided it would be better to live because it would just be too costly to die. *shrug*
I also got into a fight with my father today, it just pushes me towards my eventual goal of getting my own house, or place of residence. Yet before any of that, I have financial woes I must take care of. Wow, its time for me to "grow up" I guess and take care of myself and not others. My mom points out that I am becoming like my sister and brother more and more everyday and the hardships they face now because of poor decisions they made. Oh, by the way, they owe me lots of money, will I ever get it? No, never (my mom calls me dumb for lending them money).
So far so good I guess, wait, no, no its not.
I had to apply to different jobs today, I need a second one. I can't even pay for school, ugh... and I hate asking for loans. I have planned out my classes, it would be 12 units, enough to be considered full time. Too much on my mind anyways, I'd rather work hard and kill every last thought I have, I want to become a robot and want to stop thinking.
I also figured out I love chaos, or maybe it loves me.
Music is my life, but right now, my life is on hold. It angers me, I am at a stand still. Anyone wanna blow something up? At least if I go to prison I will be set for life. No more thinking either.
This Vermouth is delicious
I also got into a fight with my father today, it just pushes me towards my eventual goal of getting my own house, or place of residence. Yet before any of that, I have financial woes I must take care of. Wow, its time for me to "grow up" I guess and take care of myself and not others. My mom points out that I am becoming like my sister and brother more and more everyday and the hardships they face now because of poor decisions they made. Oh, by the way, they owe me lots of money, will I ever get it? No, never (my mom calls me dumb for lending them money).
So far so good I guess, wait, no, no its not.
I had to apply to different jobs today, I need a second one. I can't even pay for school, ugh... and I hate asking for loans. I have planned out my classes, it would be 12 units, enough to be considered full time. Too much on my mind anyways, I'd rather work hard and kill every last thought I have, I want to become a robot and want to stop thinking.
I also figured out I love chaos, or maybe it loves me.
Music is my life, but right now, my life is on hold. It angers me, I am at a stand still. Anyone wanna blow something up? At least if I go to prison I will be set for life. No more thinking either.
This Vermouth is delicious