WHY!

[debella]

Why
why me
why do i put myself thru this hell,
why do i care about people when no one cares back,
why does it seem no one wants me around,
why do i just want to fade away,
why do i fear death but almost want it,
why do i get made fun of,
why do smoke,
why do i hate working,
why do i get shit everytime i'm there,
why do people say i'm a dumbass,
why do i feel so stupid,
why does she make me feel this way,
why do i worry about these things,
why can't i just be happy,
why do i want to tell her how i feel but am to scared to,
why am i afraid of "no" ,
why do i have high blood pressure,
why can't i look better,
why can't i get a girlfriend,
why do i want to talk but no one wants to listen,
why do i bottle up my feelings,
why do i look like this,
why can't she know how i feel,
why am i not calling her to talk to her,
why is no one calling me,
why am i called only when needed,
why can't she call me and want to talk to me,
why do i feel this way?
why damnit why?