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I have been having a bad week. I am having the same crappy issues with the same crappy accounts. Sometimes I wish I could just tell them to kiss it. Instead, I have to work through it. It builds character I guess.
Matt and I are seeing a marriage counselor. We are actually really happy together; but like everyone- we need to work through things. I have serious issues with my body and general health. I know it must get tiring for Matt to deal with and not be able to fix it. So, we have things we need to work on separately and some together.
He lost his dad when he was very young. I think he has issues dealing with loss and grief. I have only seen him cry maybe 3 times in six years. One time when we were watching "My Life", during a fight about Richard, and the first time we watched our wedding video.
Secretly I worry that he will burst. I don't know if it would be in anger or depression. He is usually so calm and even tempered. When Donna died, I was devastated... hysterical. My mom, Kathy and I were sobbing. Donna's kids and Ida were bawling too actually, I think everyone in the funeral home was crying. Matt was so stoic. I would have thought the emotion of everyone around him and the senselessness of it all would drag out a reaction but nothing. He was very reassuring and sympathetic, but he didn't seem to be involved in the experience.
He always seems like he is survival mode. I don't know how to explain it. He is so amazingly kind to me. I love him, and I know he loves me. I just worry that he doesn't allow him self to process negative events or emotions. Could he be a Sociopath?
Matt and I are seeing a marriage counselor. We are actually really happy together; but like everyone- we need to work through things. I have serious issues with my body and general health. I know it must get tiring for Matt to deal with and not be able to fix it. So, we have things we need to work on separately and some together.
He lost his dad when he was very young. I think he has issues dealing with loss and grief. I have only seen him cry maybe 3 times in six years. One time when we were watching "My Life", during a fight about Richard, and the first time we watched our wedding video.
Secretly I worry that he will burst. I don't know if it would be in anger or depression. He is usually so calm and even tempered. When Donna died, I was devastated... hysterical. My mom, Kathy and I were sobbing. Donna's kids and Ida were bawling too actually, I think everyone in the funeral home was crying. Matt was so stoic. I would have thought the emotion of everyone around him and the senselessness of it all would drag out a reaction but nothing. He was very reassuring and sympathetic, but he didn't seem to be involved in the experience.
He always seems like he is survival mode. I don't know how to explain it. He is so amazingly kind to me. I love him, and I know he loves me. I just worry that he doesn't allow him self to process negative events or emotions. Could he be a Sociopath?