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I think I've been feeling the twins move all day. It feels like a fluttering or muscle tic in different places in the front of my abdomen. It's pretty cool, if that's what it is. According to my books, they weigh about a half a pound each now. Maybe they are slightly smaller because they are twins.
I'm starting to get out of the overwhelmed feeling, and even starting to feel a little excited. I was shopping with a friend today who was buying a baby shower gift and I couldn't help but buy a few little things for the twins. Just a few. Then I was imagining them wearing the little clothes and I started to feel this awe that they were going to be hanging out with me in their little outfits, drooling and making grunty faces and sounds, busily growing. Weird. :)
I realized that these two little ones are going to make me pretty dependent on my husband (and others!), and that idea scares the crap out of me. I've been taking care of myself since I was a very young girl, and to let go of some of that independence is going to be really really scary, and really really good for me. I need to learn how to let people help me. And since I will have no choice now, I will have to learn how to deal with the myriad of emotions that will result. The universe has sent me the perfect situation in which to learn this. Of course. Heh.
I'm starting to get out of the overwhelmed feeling, and even starting to feel a little excited. I was shopping with a friend today who was buying a baby shower gift and I couldn't help but buy a few little things for the twins. Just a few. Then I was imagining them wearing the little clothes and I started to feel this awe that they were going to be hanging out with me in their little outfits, drooling and making grunty faces and sounds, busily growing. Weird. :)
I realized that these two little ones are going to make me pretty dependent on my husband (and others!), and that idea scares the crap out of me. I've been taking care of myself since I was a very young girl, and to let go of some of that independence is going to be really really scary, and really really good for me. I need to learn how to let people help me. And since I will have no choice now, I will have to learn how to deal with the myriad of emotions that will result. The universe has sent me the perfect situation in which to learn this. Of course. Heh.