Countdown to New School orientation
I am currently jobless, internship-less, sex-less, man-less, and darn near penniless. I'm a nervous wreck about starting grad school on the Sept 5. Suck ass Smith has yet to mail my final transcript and diploma. That frickin school drives me nuts and I'll be so glad to be done with it once and for all. So anyway, I now have the reoccuring daydream/nightmare that Smith will not mail my transcripts and I'll be forced to sit out fall semester at New School. Costing me months of my precious time and energy.
I've started applying for internships in the tv/film production industry and so far have received - count em - 1 request for an interview. Ok, in all fairness I just sent them out last Tues. LOL. I am nervous about how to sell myself in interviews for these internships. This part is still very new to me. I'm leaning heavily on former admin work as a stepping stone into an internship. So here's to hoping it works out.
I've also started applying to some part time jobs for pay. My hope is to at least be able to pay my living expenses through a job - less student loans. I plan to pack my schedule so tight I'll fall into a deep sleep everytime I lay down and force myself into a strict schoolwork schedule. I did this during community college and while I was stressed, I also had my highest gpa and love of schoolwork. I'm hoping to duplicate this and attain a stellar grad school record, resulting in my raised self-esteem, access to great internships/jobs, and (*crosses fingers*) totally forgetting that I can't seem to get a decent man interested in me.
No, the man part isn't my driving goal in life but now that I am ready to date it bugs me there's nothing I want approaching me. argh! Also, I'm backsliding on taking care of my outside self. It's just so much damn work and I feel like nothing I do is worth it. I have moments where I manage to do it and I get positive responses. I just can't seem to maintain it past one or two days and most certainly not to just get up and go to the store. I don't like my wardrobe. Even though I felt like I shopped a lot last year, I just don't have many clothes. On top of that. I'm thisclose to fitting in the size 14s and I hate to spend tons of money on size 16s when if I can just get my eating and exercising together for 2 stupid weeks, I could pull off the 14! *smacks self on head*
Ok, everytime I can convince myself to post a livejournal entry to sort through my feelings and goals I'm going to end it with "Things I'm Thankful For" or something positive.
This week, I'm very grateful for my lil cousin getting through knee surgery safely. I spent the past few days with her and was reminded how much I love my family. But I also really LIKE some of them, my lil cousin J, being one of the ones I like. I just love how quick witted, loving, funny and self-confident she is. I was nothing like that at 16. Hell, I'm nothing like that now on most days!
I've started applying for internships in the tv/film production industry and so far have received - count em - 1 request for an interview. Ok, in all fairness I just sent them out last Tues. LOL. I am nervous about how to sell myself in interviews for these internships. This part is still very new to me. I'm leaning heavily on former admin work as a stepping stone into an internship. So here's to hoping it works out.
I've also started applying to some part time jobs for pay. My hope is to at least be able to pay my living expenses through a job - less student loans. I plan to pack my schedule so tight I'll fall into a deep sleep everytime I lay down and force myself into a strict schoolwork schedule. I did this during community college and while I was stressed, I also had my highest gpa and love of schoolwork. I'm hoping to duplicate this and attain a stellar grad school record, resulting in my raised self-esteem, access to great internships/jobs, and (*crosses fingers*) totally forgetting that I can't seem to get a decent man interested in me.
No, the man part isn't my driving goal in life but now that I am ready to date it bugs me there's nothing I want approaching me. argh! Also, I'm backsliding on taking care of my outside self. It's just so much damn work and I feel like nothing I do is worth it. I have moments where I manage to do it and I get positive responses. I just can't seem to maintain it past one or two days and most certainly not to just get up and go to the store. I don't like my wardrobe. Even though I felt like I shopped a lot last year, I just don't have many clothes. On top of that. I'm thisclose to fitting in the size 14s and I hate to spend tons of money on size 16s when if I can just get my eating and exercising together for 2 stupid weeks, I could pull off the 14! *smacks self on head*
Ok, everytime I can convince myself to post a livejournal entry to sort through my feelings and goals I'm going to end it with "Things I'm Thankful For" or something positive.
This week, I'm very grateful for my lil cousin getting through knee surgery safely. I spent the past few days with her and was reminded how much I love my family. But I also really LIKE some of them, my lil cousin J, being one of the ones I like. I just love how quick witted, loving, funny and self-confident she is. I was nothing like that at 16. Hell, I'm nothing like that now on most days!