I don't know, I don't know....

[debbiel66]

Having major angst about whether or not to watch the season finale until like maybe...October. Can anyone advise me?

Vague spoilers, if at all possible, although I think I've already spoiled myself aplenty!

Also, I've started a new resurrected!John story, so there is that.

Comments

[de_nugis]

I think it sets up something that could be kind of awesome, but the episode itself was emotionally mostly pretty sterile. Not distressing, and it was overall, not just between Sam and Dean, but there isn't much in the way of feeling for an Spn finale.

[debbiel66]

Oh, actually this is good to know. Kind of flat then. I'm really hoping that it is the changing of the guard that has caused this creative malaise for the last several episodes.

[de_nugis]

And the cliffhanger is set up to generate some awesome fic, I think. And I don't think it's a spoiler to say Sam's faaaaccceeee, his expressions in the last scene he's in, there is a bit of emotional punch there!

[debbiel66]

Really???? Oh, thank you! I will watch it then before October.

By the way, please don't boot me out of the writing comm! :) My summer is about to begin, and I'm definitely feeling the writing bug again.

[de_nugis]

We don't boot people! Come (right -- uh, that would be "write") us overly emotional fic to get us past the overly flat finale!

[debbiel66]

LOL, I just have this vague, uneasy feeling every time I see the word count post go up. It's good though - keeps me accountable!

By the way, can I just say how ridiculously happy I am that you wrote a BB!

[de_nugis]

It's the draftiest draft that ever drafted! But now I feel like writing Sam and Dean having FEELINGS, so the editing should give some satisfaction. And posting's not till July 16 and amber is my artist, so I'm not working with a scary stranger.

[debbiel66]

I'm pretty sure that at least part of the reason you feel like it's rough is because it is longer than what you usually do, and therefore, you have less control of it, at this stage in the game.

As someone who also writes shorter pieces most of the time, I think it's a little unsettling to let go of perfectionism and just let the story do what it's going to do. I adore your writing and can't wait to read a longer story from you.

[de_nugis]

There's rough and then there's rough! This is genuinely unfinished -- stuff unwritten, POV messes, a lot of background domestic stuff not there because I needed plot with beginning, middle and end for the basic draft requirements.

The thing is, I write SLOWLY. I've written exactly one fic over 20K, and it took me a year. Not of constant work, of course, but still, that one had a lot of time to grow and be fallow when it needed. So I'm a bit nervous about getting this one whipped into shape. But there's also stuff in it I really want to exist, so I'm hoping it will come together.

[debbiel66]

I know it will. And the fact that you write longer stories so rarely only makes it that much more to look forward to.