SPN Fic: Killing Time

[debbiel66]

Title: Killing Time
Author: debbiel66
Characters: John, Dean, Sam, Bobby, Castiel
Word Count: 6800
Genre: gen
Rating: R (language)
Warnings: Spoilers through 6X16; AU from that point on
Author's Notes: This story follows Clean Slate in my resurrection!John verse. It is not necessary to read that story first, but it would probably be helpful

Comments

[cece_away]

I cannot even begin to decribe how profoundly awesome this is. One of the best I've read EVER and I read a lot.

From John seeking answers from Sam and watching body language to Dean storming in and the incredible pacing ramped up from there and kept peaking and peaking . . . my eyes were glued to the screen, heart in my throat . . . and I swear I heard the thud when Sam dropped.

The characterization in this is top-notch, so heavy with hurt and distrust and worry and John trying to piece everything together with nothing to go on. And his love for those boys is so poignant and held back as is his way although glimpses of it are bleeding through.

I also love the role reversal of the boys' younger selves with Dean so angry and distrustful over what John did . . . and Sam at peace and having to be pushed really far now to rise to the bait, even though John still knows what buttons to press.

Damn near wept when Bobby told John not to waste the suffering.

Okay, I'm going to stop now before I gush all over the place. I'm going to go add this to my fics I couldn't stop thinking about list. It's a short list, only fics that really really really get to me down deeply go there.

Please, please keep writing in this verse.

[debbiel66]

This is such a lovely comment... I want to cut and paste it and put it somewhere so I can re-read it the next time I wonder why I write in the first place.

The characterization in this was honestly, really complicated. John's POV is a difficult place to hang out. I love John, but the way he sees his purpose and the way he sees his boys are always going to be at odds. The scene with Sam was especially tricky because I just see Sam as trying so hard but John is always going to be able to push his buttons.

Dean has a lot of issues to work out... as do they all.

Thank you for letting me know you would like more... it means a lot.